ma petite pièce

Minds are like parachutes - they only function when open.

2011-11-18T17:31:00.001+07:00

so, i decided to publish my other blog: joyoux.posterous.com
sebenernya awalnya mo bikin blog terpisah aja, blog ini buat yang lebih umum, n that blog buat yang lebih personal. like my personal thoughts, what i'm learning/thinking, and maybe mungkin kadang buat nulis2 pas lagi galau (hopefully sih ga ada galau writings.hihi :D). dan sebenernya jg ga mau terlalu publish blog tsb, krn gw bukan tipe orang yang bisa cerita ke sembarang orang, ga pengen banyak org tau ttg gw, mgkn krn i'm a bit shy person *blushing* :D tapi, belakangan jd mikir, buat apa gw tulis klo org ga bs baca. maybe juga nanti ada temen/org yg ga kenal yg bisa jd belajar/blessed by my writings. so, i decided to share it :D
and why posterous? soalnya gampang banget posting pake posterous. tinggal kirim by email, lgsg jadi deh postingnya. so easy.
so, feel free to mampir di my posterous :) joyoux.posterous.com

Minds are like parachutes - they only function when open.

Kena batunya

2011-10-19T12:46:00.001+07:00

Bed-resting at home for two days. Udah lama ga sakit sampe muntah2 gitu, dan kali ini br tau klo gw bisa kena maag jg. Selama ini kadang makan suka telat, kadang makan asal2an aja ga mikir byk, pikirnya gw ga ada sakit maag ini. Ternyataaa bs kena jg. HiksTp i'm grateful for this chance to rest at home. Walopun kali ini lg sakit gini ga ada org di rumah, ga ada yg ngurusin, tp thank God ada pacar yg masi mau ngurusin. Beliin bubur dll, n malah minjemin ipad-nya biar gw ga bosen. Thanking God for him :) and i'm realy grateful for the people yang tnyata ms byk yg perhatian jg, my parents, my sister, friends. Thanking God for each one of them :)Dan abis sakit gini jd ky lebih mikirin soal kesehatan. Sakit itu ga enak bangett. Tdnya gw pikir org sakit maag itu paling cuma sakit perut doang ky ditusuk2. Ternyataa sakitnya ga enak bgt (lah namanya juga sakit, masa ada yg enak :p) satu badan rasanya keleyengan, kepala pusing, pengen muntah mulu bawaannya, perut rasanya muter2 banyak gas sampe kruduk2 terus, satu badan lemes, plus ditambah tidur di ranjang seharian jd rasanya tulang sakit semua (klo bangun makin pengen muntah soalnya). Emang yah orang klo blm kena batunya blm mau mikir :p musti makan yg teratur, makan jg dijaga. Skrg ktny ga boleh makan santan, gorengan, asem, pedes, dll. Jd byk pantangan deh. Semoga gw inget :pYahh, jd mulai skrg harus jaga badan. Rajin2 cari info jg soal makanan yang sehat, mana yg ngga. N walopun skrg masi blm bener2 pulih amat (perut masi kembung2 terus n masi suka mual), i believe God will heal me soon. Thank You for Your healing Lord :)

thinking back/thinking forward

2011-09-01T15:22:00.005+07:00

yak udah tanggal 1 september aja nih tau2nya, ga berasa. time is ticking. tahun 2011 uda tinggal sisa 4 bulan lagi. jadi mikir, resolusi taun ini gimana progressnya yah. tapi kali ini ga tau napa agak lebih serius mikirnya, jd mikirin progress kehidupan gw sendiri. hehe berat yah mikirnya :p i dont know, i'm just wondering, what have i done with my life? have i done something great?
belakangan banyak mikir, apa yang gw lakukan selama ini itu sebenernya yg gw mau ato bukan sih? i feel like i want to do these things before, tapi belakangan kok kynya i dont really enjoy doing it yah. hmm sometimes i enjoyed it, sometimes i dont. gw jd brapa kali ky baca2 lagi journal gw di jaman2 dulu, wktu masi semangat2nya, excited buat melakukan banyak hal, pengen ini pengen itu. hmm skrg sih masi ada beberapa hal yg buat gw excited, tapi kok rasanya excitednya beda yah. i dont know apa ini gara2 gw lg jenuh aja, ato emang gw harus cari hal2 lain yang bikin gw semangat. i feel like needing to find my purpose back, the exact things/reason i'm created for.
anw, gw bersyukur dari dulu terbiasa nulis journal. krn dr baca2 apa yg ditulis kdg ky jd ngingetin gw lagi apa yg uda lewat, yg uda tercapai, apa yg tadinya jd harapan gw dll, biar back to track lagi. hehe hmm i think gw mulai nulis journal itu dari sebelom tahun 2000-an bukan ya? lupa. udah lama pokonya. dan klo baca2 lagi tuh kadang bisa ketawa sndiri, sedih sendiri, seneng sndiri, dan yang pasti berasa sgt bersyukur, God has led me this far. baca journal itu berasa ky lagi flashback, ky lagi baca balik kehidupan gw dr jaman dulu sampe skrg. hihi kynya klo dibikin buku, uda bisa jadi buku tebel 400-an halaman deh. hehe
back to the topic. i feel like finding new things to do. or maybe just do the other things that excites me n leave the things i get bored now for sometime? hmm i need wisdom. God please help me :'(
yang jelas, skrg gw masi excited sama hal2 ini: cooking, crafts, dogs/pets, trus apalagi yah, ga kepikiran. hmm i really need to find new things! :p

tiba2 keinget lagu ini:

all of my life in every season, You are still God
i have a reason to sing, i have a reason to worship

one thing for sure, He will never leave me, and He has prepared the best for me. Thank You God :)
ayoo semangat joie! :)

Fruit of the Spirit

2011-09-01T15:15:00.002+07:00

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-Control.

But what happens when we live God's way? He brings gifts into our lives, much the same way that fruit appears in an orchard—things like affection for others, exuberance about life, serenity. We develop a willingness to stick with things, a sense of compassion in the heart, and a conviction that a basic holiness permeates things and people. We find ourselves involved in loyal commitments, not needing to force our way in life, able to marshal and direct our energies wisely. (Gal 5:22-23 The Message Bible)

what i found today

2011-07-27T13:24:00.004+07:00

via coolhunter (coolhunter on facebook)

rush rush rush

2011-07-25T16:22:00.003+07:00

been quite busy these days. so many things to do n be finished. brasa dikejer2 from one to another. plus lagi banyak pikiran juga. jadi rasanya campur aduk deh. huyuhh
anyway, walopun sempet down, thank God dpt semangat lagi abis diingetin to keep on being grateful for everything. give thanks for everything God has permit to be happened, for everything that has been trusted to me, and for the ups and downs, karena semuanya itu untuk kebaikan kita sendiri. and for sure, i trust my God that He is good, He will give me strength to face all the things i should face, do all the things i should do. and believe that He provides the best for my future, way beyond what i can think of. so, thank You God :)

"But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run and don't get tired, they walk and don't lag behind." Isaiah 40:31

s.e.m.a.n.g.a.t.!

memories

2011-07-15T00:23:00.000+07:00

Nowplaying: Inggrid Michaelson - The Way I Am

Klo denger lagu ini jd inget jaman2 kerja di kantor lama, krn dulu smpt tiap pagi alarmnya pk lagu ini :p jd kangen. Kangen kantornya, kangen suasana kerjanya, kangen orang-orangnya, tapi tentunya tidak kangen work loadnya :p

Lucu yah, dengerin lagu-lagu tertentu bisa bikin kita feel back the memories. Jd inget dulu klo dtg ke kantor pagi2 bikin teh dulu br mulai kerja. Inget suka cuciin coffee maker kantor pdhl gw ga sk kopinya, tp gw cuciin biar bisa nyantai bntar di pantry. Inget jadi dj siapin lagu2 buat dimainin seharian di kantor. Inget pas kapan wktu djnya siapa gitu tiba2 ada lagu "kusiapkan hatiku Tuhan" trus ada temen siapin amplop coklat buat persembahan. Hihi *ngakak* inget bbrp kali bikin surprise buat tmn yg ulang taun. Inget klo sore suka nitip si mas hadi beliin tempe n gorengan2 lain, trus makan rame2. Inget wktu2 lembur sampe malem brg tmn2. Inget si pacar yg brp kali tiba2 ada di dpn kantor bawain makan buat ngelembur. Inget kdg sk dianter jemput pacar jg pulang pegi klo lg ga ada mobil. Inget jaman2 pas suka ujan gede n banjir di parkiran. Inget klo abis pegi makan kluar sama anak2 tp nyampe kantor kuncinya ga ada trus jd nongkrong di dpn. Hehe somehow I miss working there. Not missing the stresses and work loads, but missing the memories I guess. Diinget2 dulu jg suka bangun pagi begitu denger alarm jd deg2an n worried about the day. Hehe yah tp dibanding duka2nya skrg ky lebih keinget ama suka2nya :p

Anyway I'm grateful for the time being there. It really helped me a lot to be what I am today. I learned so much at those time. And I'm grateful for everyone I met there. God bless each one of them :)

Skrg being a freelancer bukan berarti jadi seneng2/santai2 n ga ada stres. Stressnya beda, tantangannya beda. Yah both of them (working full time at office and being a freelancer) sama2 punya pros and cons. I'm just grateful for the phase of life that I hv now. Thanks God :)

lego bricks

2011-07-12T18:14:00.003+07:00

it'll be fun if we could use this kind of bricks to build houses, and then when we get bored with the house, just knock it down and remodel it over again :p
via freshome

don't ever stop learning

2011-07-08T17:46:00.004+07:00

lagi bete sama 3d max :( beberapa hari ini ngerjain gambar yang seharusnya bisa cepet beres, gara2 settingan lighting/ apalah itu *yang aku tak mengerti kenapa* harusnya gpp kok malah jd ribet. huh aneh banget deh. pas gambarnya gelap berarti logikanya settingan lightingnya di naikin, dicoba naik-naikin dikit sambil tes, ehhh tau2nya jadi keterangan. trus nanti klo keterangan diturunin settingannya dia tetep terang2 aja. maunya apa sih. smurf!

tapi minggu ini gw jadi banyak belajar:
1. belajar sabar. sabar nunggu renderan yang klo uda render gede bisa ngabisin waktu 1 jem, belajar sabar walopun pengen cepet2 kelarin smua gambarnya
2. belajar estimasi waktu kerja. klo emang ga sanggup kerja cepet dan banyak msti bisa ngomong, jgn iya-iya aja *abis pikirnya bisa cepet* :(
3. belajar ga under estimate kerjaan. brasa ah gampang, ternyata ga semuanya segampang yang dipikirkan
4. belajar jangan mau dibawa stress. if God brings me to it, He will bring me through it. amin! :)
5. dan yang pasti, musti belajar lebih banyak lagi biar ga ada problem gini2 lagi. selama ini pikir ah kyny uda cukup deh, ga ada masalah/lancar2 aja. tapi ternyata oh ternyata.. jadi ga boleh berenti belajar. klo mau terus berkembang harus mau untuk belajar terus ;)

jadi, thanks God :)
*semoga abis ini 3d max nya ga bikin bete lagi* :)

2D/3D Chairs by Yoichi Yamamoto for Issey Miyake

2011-07-07T18:19:00.001+07:00

cool idea :)
from dezeen

flowers to brighten up your day

2011-06-16T11:13:00.007+07:00

via decor8

:)

2011-06-08T17:21:00.002+07:00

discarded cardboard pendant lamps

2011-06-07T13:46:00.003+07:00

Beute Lamps by Michael Wolke
via Contemporist

How He Loves Us - David Crowder Band

2011-06-01T09:21:00.001+07:00

(Verse 1)
He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realise just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me

(Pre-Chorus)
And O how He loves us
Oh, O how He loves us
How He loves us all

(Chorus)
Yeah He loves us
O how He loves us
O how He loves us
O how He loves

(Verse 2)
We are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking
So Heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way

Caring = Love

2011-05-27T21:34:00.000+07:00

The number one lesson in life, the number one reason God put you on this earth, is to learn how to love. God is love and he wants you to be like him.

It's easy to love people you like, the people you find easy to get along with. So if God's going to teach you real love, realize that he's going to put you around unlovely people.

"Everything you do must be done with love" - This means at the office, in the car, on a sales trip, whatever. The good news is this really is not hard. It's easy to underestimate the power of a kind word, a friendly smile, a pat on the back, a genuine compliment, a word of encouragement, and a listening ear.

I have seen so many lives changed when somebody takes time to pay attention to them. There is not a person on this planet who isn't starving for attention. But a caring person is hard to find.

The Apostle Paul said this, "I have no one else like Timothy, who genuinely cares about your welfare." (Philippians 2:20 NLT) Does that sound like your workplace? Everyone looking out for his own interests, not those of Jesus Christ? Those who really care are really aware.

-from Rick Warren's Daily Devotional-

i want i want i want :p

2011-05-24T19:36:00.003+07:00

got this on pinterest

recent works

2011-05-24T15:33:00.002+07:00

introducing my recent works at http://caroljoy.carbonmade.com/
*wink wink wink* :)

time out

2011-05-07T23:11:00.002+07:00

#nowplaying You hold my world in Your hands - Israel Houghton

Have been laying on my bed for about an hour, was planning to sleep earlier due to lack of sleep last nite, but this mind kept on wandering. And somehow it brought me to hv a time out with God and myself personally. Lately I was too busy with my own mind/self and forgot to have a real time with myself n God. I feel I was walking by my own. I prayed, but it all just seem like a routinity, and I end up feels empty. But now I feel much better, it feels like a glass being filled with lots of water, I feel refreshed and the emptiness are gone :) grateful :)
Today I kept being reminded of one of my favorite quote from an ad:

I want to live my life to the absolute fullest. To open my eyes to be all I can be. To travel roads not taken, to meet faces unknown. To feel the wind, to touch the stars. I promise to discover myself. To stand tall with greatness. To chase down and catch every dream.

~living a full life on the outside, starts on the inside~

And that's what I'm learning now. To keep my 'inside' full, so I can live to the fullest. And I learned that it can only be filled by God. I need to do that regularly. Learn not to seek anything/anyone to fill that need, but to seek only God to make it full.
Thanks God for the lesson :)
Now my eyes are so ready to go to sleep :p

Nitey! :)

Strangers, again

2011-04-28T22:09:00.003+07:00

just watch a short movie on youtube titled "Strangers, again". it's a good movie. and now i learn the stages of a relationship:
1. stage 1: meeting
2. stage 2: chase
3. stage 3: honeymoon
4. stage 4: comfortable
5. stage 5: tolerance
6. stage 6: downhill

hmm i'm glad i accidentally found this movie, makes me learn something ;) and maybe you could learn something too, so i'll share it. enjoy :)

Heart Check-Up

2011-04-28T20:52:00.003+07:00

Every morning, take a full glass of gratitude
When getting to work, take one spoon of peace
Every hour, take one pill of patience, one cup of brotherhood and one glass of humility
When getting home, take one dose of love
When getting to bed, take two caplets of clear conscience

Do not give in into sadness or desperation for what you are going through today.
God knows how you feel...
God knows exactly and with perfection what is being allowed to happen to you in your life at this precise moment.

God's purpose for you is simply perfect.
He wants to show you things that only you can understand by living what you are living, and by being in the place you are now.

May God give you...
For every storm a rainbow,
For every tear a smile,
For every care a promise and blessing in each trial.
For every problem life sends, a faithful friend to share,
For every sigh a sweet song and an answer for each prayer.

Higher Deeper - True Worshipper Youth

2011-04-22T11:06:00.001+07:00

Beautiful Jesus, Savior of all the earth
Wounded and broken, suffered on Calvary
Crucified in my place
Lifted me from shame

King of the ages, risen in majesty
Surrounded in glory and poured out Your love for me
At your feet I worship
And lift my voice to sing

*Reff
Love that's higher and deeper
You are more than enough for me
Love that's higher and deeper
You are more than enough for me

*Bridge
Great is Your love
Great is Your love
Great is Your everlasting love

Great is Your grace
Great is Your grace
Great is the glory of Your grace

Ephesians 6:7

2011-04-21T11:20:00.002+07:00

Work with enthusiasm, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. (New Living Translation)

And work with a smile on your face, always keeping in mind that no matter who happens to be giving the orders, you're really serving God. (the Message)

blood type character

2011-04-06T12:46:00.000+07:00

copy-paste-ing from my bb message :p

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 Berusaha menjadi sewajar dan ideal mungkin.
 Kadang suka menyendiri dan jauh dari orang-orang.
 Suka menekan perasaan dan terlihat tegar.
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 Banyak kegemaran dan hobby.
 Menggebu-gebu namun cepat juga bosan.
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 Cenderung ingin jadi nomor satu dan melalaikan sesuatu jika terfokus dgn kesibukan yang lain (tidak bisa mengerjakan sesuatu dalam waktu yg sama).
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 Keras dgn diri sendiri dan orang² dekat.
 Cenderung kelihatan punya dua kepribadian.
 Suka sentimen dan mikir sesuatu terlalu dalam.
 Banyak teman, tapi suka menyendiri juga

2011-04-06T09:28:00.000+07:00

Don't be too fond of sleep; you'll end up in the poorhouse. Wake up and get up; then there'll be food on the table. ~Proverbs 20:13 (The Message)

quote

2011-03-28T14:07:00.002+07:00

got this on pinterest

blogwalking & thinking

2011-03-28T12:34:00.005+07:00

found my new passion in wedding design inspirations. especially in the diy-things. should i be a wedding designer? :)
thesweetestoccasion . inspiredbride . marthastewartweddings

2011-03-13T07:07:00.000+07:00

Sedalamnya hatiku Kau pun tahu
Dan kasihMu tak jauh dalam jiwaku
Di dalam kesesakan
Di dalam kemenangan
Kutahu Engkau slalu bersamaku

Slalu Bersamaku ~ Sidney Mohede

2011-03-10T19:53:00.003+07:00

It's not how much you have, but it's how you use what you have that matters. Are you making the most of the gifts and talents God has given to you?

Your gifts and talents will make room for you.

From Hope for Today: Making the most of what you have

2011-03-10T19:46:00.001+07:00

Don't just associate with people who are like you; associate with people you can learn from, grow with, people who will help you see a different perspective on life. Remember, God created all of us on purpose and for a purpose.
~Joel Osteen

From Hope for Today: Broaden Your Life

2011-03-09T22:22:00.001+07:00

by chris & stephen harris-smith via design*sponge

good morning habit ;)

2011-03-09T08:28:00.001+07:00

Good morning!

This morning I start my day by having a walk around my neighbourhood. It's a refreshing and healthy thing to do. I have decided to start this good habit a long long time ago, but often failed because of this reason: mau bangun pagi itu susah sekaliii! :D niat besar tapi apa daya niat tidurnya lebih gede dibanding niat jalan paginya :p but thankfully akhir2 ini udah bisa lebih mengalahkan males n ngantuknya. Hore hore berhasil berhasil berhasil! *gaya dora*
Anw,there's a lot of positive things we can have by taking this morning walk/jog as a habit:
1. Yg pasti jd belajar/biasain diri utk bangun pagi. Kt orang kan, bangun kudu pagi biar rejekinya ga dipatok ayam. Hehe n it's true, when we wake up early, we would have more time to do things productively. Kadang klo bgn siang bawaannya uda males duluan n malah jd wasting much time in a day buat males2an. Tp klo bangun pagi, pikiran jd lebih seger, lebih semangat utk be productive.
2. Klo mau bgn pagi, mau ga mau jd biasain tdr cepet pas malemnya (kecuali bbrp org yg emang uda kebiasa tidur cm bbrp jam, klo gw sih ga bs :p). Early to bed, early to rise, makes u healthy wealthy and wise ;)
3. By jogging/ having a morning walk, yg pasti badan jd lebih seger, lebih sehat/fit ;)
4. Belajar ramah sama orang lain/tetangga yg ga dikenal. I'm actually a bit shy and not really into meeting people. But by this, I'm learning to be friendly with the people I know/don't. Belajar ngasi senyum ke org ga dikenal (kdg ms agak susah sih :p). It's a good thing, right? Anyway, another positive thing, kali2 aja bs kenalan sama tetangga yg ganteng. Hihi klo gw sampe skrg cm ketemunya sama om2/ opa2/ oma2 sih. Haha
5. As for myself, since I'm doing this alone, jd ada waktu utk talking to myself and talking with God, being grateful for the fresh air He gave, for the greenery/plants/nature I'm seeing, for every new chances He gave to me everyday. When I'm walking in a bright/sunny morning, it's just feels great, it made me feel I can trust my whole life to Him, knowing that He has already prepared a bright/sunny future for me. So morning walk is really a great time to be thankful to God :)

I hope I could keep this good habit.

Anw, I'm currently loving and experiencing this verse:
"What no one ever saw or heard, what no one ever thought could happen, is the very thing God prepared for those who love him." 1 Corinthians 2:9. My God is awesome. Thanks God ;)

dolce far niente

2011-03-06T13:00:00.010+07:00

dolce far niente (italian)

n pleasant idleness
(literally: sweet doing nothing)

the sweetness of doing nothing; how sweet it is to do nothing

heiho. i'm back to the blogging world :) berasa uda lama banget ga nulis blog n blogwalking. hihi slama ini cuma bisa sempet2in klo ada waktu. but now, finally, i have more time. yeay :)

i'm actually in palembang now, visiting my mom n dad here. the weather is really hot in here, masi mendingan jakarta deh. untung kadang2 ada ujan jd udaranya bisa lebih seger. tapi bawaannya ngantuk mulu jadinya. hihi

anyway i'm in the state of being grateful, happy and pleasant nowadays. rasanya uda lama ga brasa ky gini, waking up in the morning with no worries, no burdens, no hard feelings. bisa santai, lebih ada banyak waktu buat merenung, dan lebih tepatnya, bisa mulai mengatur arah hidup. *serius banget yah* haha i mean, it seems like this is my time to reflect about what i've done in the past, and dream/plan about what i want to do in the future. somehow there's some things in the past yang rasanya kok gw jalanin cm sebagai rutinitas, ga ada semangatnya, bahkan skrg ky uda ilang semangatnya disitu. but anyway that past helped me a lot. it helped me to know about myself, my boundaries, my strength, etc. now i know what i want and what i don't want. and i know some things that i think i couldn't do but now i could. so i thank God for every past i have, n so excited about the future God has planned for me ;)

anw, i thank God for everything i have now, being planted in JPCC - anw i missed jpcc today *hiks* :'(, have a chance to attend COL class in church, have a great and wonderful family, boyfriend and friends, and for everyone i had a chance to meet. grateful for every situation n experience i have now. and keep hoping and anticipating for the best things God provided for me in the days to come. yeay! :)

and thanks God for this chance to have my dolce far niente ;)

Beautiful by Wayne Brady feat. Jim Brickman

2011-03-04T23:34:00.000+07:00

From the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes
there was something about you
I knew I knew
that you were once in a life time
a treasure near impossible to find
and I know how lucky I am to have you

Chorus:
Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Holding you in my arms
no one else has fit so perfectly
I could dance forever with you, with you
and at the stroke of midnight
please forgive me if I can't let go
cause I never dreamed I'd find a Cinderella of my own

(Chorus)

from the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked ïnto your eyes...

Love love love this song! :)

2011-02-21T15:51:00.004+07:00

"When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown.
Because you are precious to Me, you are honored, and I love you. "
-God-

quoted from JPCC Breaking Feb 2011

2011-02-12T14:27:00.000+07:00

"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes." ~Matthew 6:34 (the message)

vanilla twilight - owl city

2011-02-10T21:54:00.000+07:00

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

Mad - Ne-Yo ~so you think you can dance

2011-02-07T16:57:00.001+07:00

love this

this is what i like/want to do

2011-01-14T12:57:00.002+07:00

turning unused things to a useful and creative objects.
~from: design*sponge

Thank YOU

2011-01-14T11:01:00.001+07:00

Just a little while longer I wanna pray
Can't get You off my mind so I came to say
Thank You Lord, just for loving me, alright
Many times I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me

CHORUS
Here I am with all I have
Raise my hands to worship You
I wanna say thank you, oh thank you
For everything, for who You are
You cover me, You touch my heart
I wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me
Didn't have any hope at all
You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on
I should have been the one to pay
But instead You took my place
Amazing grace, it's more than just a song
Even though I don't deserve Your love for me
You look beyond my fault and You showed me mercy

CHORUS

I wanna say thank you for the sun
Lord we thank you for the rain
Thank you for the love You gave

CHORUS

thank YOU Lord :)

You hold my world - Israel Houghton - Love God, Love People album

2010-10-27T17:43:00.001+07:00

Verse 1:
Take my heart/ Lord will you take my heart/ as I surrender to Your will
I confess You are my righteousness/ And until You move me I'll be still
And know that You are God.

Chorus:
You hold my world in Your hands/ You hold my world in Your hands and
I am amazed at Your love/ I am amazed that You love me
You hold my world in Your hands/ You hold my world in Your hands and
I'm not afraid my world is safe/ in Your Hands Oh/ In Your hands

Verse 2:
Take my life/ Lord will You take my life/ You are the reason that I live
I believe You have forgiven me/And by Your grace I will forgive
And know that You are God/ And know that You are God

Chorus :
(same as above)

Vamp:
You won't let go of me/ You won't let go of me/ You won't let go of me/ You won't let go Never let go
You will take care of me/ You will take care of me/ You will take care of me/ You will take care Always take care
You hold my world in Your hands/ You hold my world/ And you won't let go//

Forever Reign - Hillsong

2010-10-18T08:32:00.000+07:00

You are good, You are good
When there's nothing good in me
You are love, You are love
On display for all to see
You are light, You are light
When the darkness closes in
You are hope, You are hope
You have covered all my sin

You are peace, You are peace
When my fear is crippling
You are true, You are true
Even in my wandering
You are joy, You are joy
You're the reason that I sing
You are life, You are life,
In You death has lost it's sting

Oh, I'm running to your arms,
I'm running to arms
The riches of your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

You are more, You are more
Than my words will ever say
You are Lord, You are Lord
All creation will proclaim
You are here, You are here
In your presence I'm made whole
You are God, You are God
Of all else I'm letting go

Oh, I'm running to your arms
I'm running to arms
The riches of your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

//My heart will sing
no other name
Jesus, Jesus//

//Oh, I'm running to your arms
I'm running to arms
The riches of your love
Will always be enough
Nothing compares to Your embrace
Light of the world forever reign

me likes DIY

2010-10-15T17:29:00.002+07:00

from oh joy!, bloesem

wisdom of the day ;)

2010-10-14T14:19:00.001+07:00

I'm on my road trip to furniture workshop yang tempatnya nun jauh di sana. Ini jalan ky ga berujung, ga sampe2, kiri kanan banyak sawah, eh ngeliat ada gembala kambing n kambing2nya. Then it made me think.

Spt gembala kambing yang nuntun kambing2nya dari belakang pake tongkat, kdg mukul2 dikit ke si kambingnya, maybe it's just the way how God leads us to His way. Kita mgkn bingung mau jalan kemana, liat ke depan ky ga ada yg nuntun, ga ada yg bs diikutin, tp dr belakang Tuhan nuntun kita, mgkn kadang "mukul2" kita pk tongkatNya, supaya kita bs jalan ke arah yg Dia mau kita jalanin. So everything happens for a reason. Dan saat "dipukul2" mgkn ga enak, rasanya kenapa sih harus ngalamin yg dialamin sekarang. Tapi sebenernya itu cara Tuhan buat nuntun dan membentuk kita supaya tetap jalan sesuai rencana Dia.

So thank YOU God :)

Burn Out - Ps Jose Carol

2010-09-19T14:31:00.000+07:00

Isaiah 40: 29-31 "He energizes those who get tired, gives fresh strength to dropouts. For even young people tire and drop out, young folk in their prime stumble and fall. But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles,They run and don’t get tired,they walk and don’t lag behind."
Matthew 11:28-30 "“Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly.”

1. Find God
Matthew 6:6 “Here’s what I want you to do: Find a quiet, secluded place so you won’t be tempted to role-play before God. Just be there as simply and honestly as you can manage. The focus will shift from you to God, and you will begin to sense his grace."

2. Be still
Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God."

3. Take God's yoke
The reason why we're stressed out, because we're walking too fast or too slow from God's walk plan.
God's shoulder is far stronger than ours, to pile and carry our troubles.

Finding PeMi (Peace of Mind) ;p

2010-08-21T23:09:00.000+07:00

Just enjoying my saturday night by resting on my bed. Tdnya mau tidur, badan cape bgt hr ini abis kerja bakti di kantor, tp ga bisa tidur2. Jdnya leyeh2 sambil baca koran deh. Udah lamaaa bgt kyny ga baca koran. Hihi
And I found this article by the career coach Rene Suhardono. Judulnya: Be Mindful with Ur Mind. Dan ternyata pas sama apa yg smpt kepikiran in my mind bbrp hari ini.
Lately I was so busy, so overloaded with work. I'm handling some residential projects (one self project, one sharing project, and one follow up project - yg harusnya uda bs dikelarin tp blom kelar2. Grrr). Dan kadang2, tanpa disadarin klo lg hectic tuh ya, rasanya semua project itu ngejer2 gw. Semuanya minta cpt diberesin, cepet di follow up, cepet digambar, cepet dikerjain, dsb. Blom klo ada masalah di lapangan. Detail ini ga bs lah, salah pasang lah, kerjaannya ga maju2 lah, dsb. Klo udah gitu rasanya pengen kabur aja. Pengen tidur n ngarep bangun2 tu project udah jadi semua n bagus, klien seneng, bos seneng, semua seneng. Hehe tp yah mo gimana lagi, klo lg hectic gt kan ga bs kabur gt aja, dan tetep harus bs beresin kerjaannya. N I don't know why, klo udah pusing dan stress dan overloaded gt, bawaannya malah jd males n ga semangat kerja ;p
But this week I've been reminded of this verse again: "Be STILL, and know that I am God." Kadang di tengah ke-hectic-an itu, kita butuh utk bs nenangin diri, finding peace in ourselves. Be still itu bukan maksudnya jadi diemin diri n ga melakukan apa2. But it means we have peace in our mind, won't let those obstacles n problems n worries take control of our mind, and trust God, that He holds our life completely in His hands. When u are still, God will tell u what's the best thing to do to solve ur problems, how to do it, etc. So u don't let those problems and worries overload ur mind, but u're letting God to take control of u. Cause letting ur mind be filled with those troubles and worries won't help u at all. So, now I'm learning to find peace in the middle of a storm :) it's not easy, and I'm still learning ;p
Anw, in the article I read this evening, Rene mentioned some that I found encouraging:
* Be mindful with ur mind. Pikiran itu ky kutu loncat, pindah dr 1 topik ke hal lain. Hilang kontrol atas pikiran sama aja dgn biarin diri dikuasain sama si kutu loncat.
* No one ever injured his eyesight by looking at the brightside.
* We may not live in the best of times, but we can live the best of time.
So, I'm learning to let go of this 'kutu loncat' n just let the good God control my mind and heart. Hope we all will learn the same :)

One quote I've got today

2010-08-13T21:45:00.000+07:00

"You don't dance in front of ur client, you dance with them."

lessons in these few months

2010-08-12T23:48:00.002+07:00

Feeling grateful for everything. And somehow I just want to write down and share my gratefulness :) Thank God for putting me in my workplace at present. Sometimes I'm just amazed when I realize I'm working here. With every challenges that sometimes trying to put me down and sometimes making me excited, with every ups and downs, I thank You Lord for making me what I am today. Since I worked I learned:
1. How to deal with people. With boss, colleages, clients, suppliers, contractors, site workers. Everyone. Me, someone who used to be not really into people, now I'm brave enough to face and learn how to deal with people. How to talk with people. Yea there are times, even til now sometimes I feel so stupid for things I did or said, but hey, life is to be lived and learned. People do mistakes and the wise are the ones who learned from those and try to do her best not to repeat it again :)
2. Learn how to deal and handle lots of things. And also learn how to prioritize things, which ones are more important, which ones are not. And by that, I learn to make steps on what should I do to finish all the tasks needed to be done. Before this time, I used to be confused when things just seems like so much and unbearable to be handled by myself. I'm not really a person who can concentrate on lots of things. I used to finish my work step by step, finishing this then continue with that, and so on. But now I learn to handle things better, cause sometimes some things are important at the same time. So I should learn to be efficient in using my time.
3. I learned to see the future in a positive way. Sometimes things just went not right and makes me down. And sometimes it feels like quitting. Especially when it's me myself who did the mistake. But it teaches me not to be irresponsible. To think fast to solve the problem, not to run from it. And just having faith that everything's gonna be alright, that at the end I will see these process along the way and see the result of what I've been doing, and will be grateful for all of it. And mostly, I'm learning to trust God, that He let things happen for a reason. He's a good God, and I'm sure that everything will be beautiful at the end, cause He holds it all in His hands :)

What else yah. I felt like I have learned a lot since the day I started to work here. I guess I'm to sleepy now to think about it. All I'm saying is: Thank You Lord for everything :)

To make you feel my love - Kris Allen

2010-08-12T21:38:00.000+07:00

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go blind for you
I'd go crawling down the aisle for you
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on a rolling sea
Down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain't seen nothing like me yet

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

*currently in love with this song. Especially with Kris Allen's voice :)

doggies!

2010-07-26T15:48:00.001+07:00

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"daily" sermon part 1 n 2

2010-07-25T23:21:00.001+07:00

Just wanna write down my notes. Sermon by ps jose.

*what needs to be done daily, should be done daily.
3 kali sehari makan 1 porsi makanan ga sama dengan 1 kali makan 3 porsi, walopun jumlahnya sama.
Rutinitas itu tidak selalu negatif. Rutin = rajin/teratur.
What needs to be done daily: bible reading, praying, devotion, forgiving others and ourselves, ...

*building character needs daily discipline.
Action/event -> habit -> character.
Habit: repeated events.
"It could take only one day for God to change ur situation. But it takes every day to change you."
Tuhan tdk dtgkan apa yg kita minta sekaligus, karena Dia mau membentuk kita.
God's mercy is always new every morning.

*beauty comes from daily simple things.

*Two things needed in life: strength and durability

If u want to be trusted, u hv to plant the seeds of trust.
Giving trust: bagian dr org yg mau dipercaya. Having faith: bagian dr org yg mau percaya.
God trusted us new blessings, favor and mercy everyday, so we can learn to have faith in Him.

Miracle could be a door to solve ur problems, but u still need to change ur habits in order to be free from ur problems.

2010-07-10T09:20:00.000+07:00

Philippians 4
6 Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns.
7 Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

2010-07-05T08:36:00.000+07:00

"Not by might, nor by power, but by My Spirit ... says the Lord of hosts." Zechariah 4:6

"I want you to face the mountain
so that you can see,
when the mountain is out of the way
all there is left is Me.

Only I can move the mountain,
only I can push it away,
only I can conquer the problems
that you face today.

Your only job is to believe, to listen
to my voice,
and when you hear what I command,
obedience is your choice.

But I will not make it too difficult for the
victory is already mine,
and I will fill you with My Spirit and through
you My grace will shine.

Not when you are perfect,
like you think you need to be,
but when your heart is willing to become more
and more like Me."

~New Day New You by Joyce Meyer

2010-07-04T22:46:00.000+07:00

A little bit worried about this following weekdays. Smurf! :(

But I shud say to myself: I'm not gonna make myself be burdened and worried about what tomorrows will bring, cause I'm in the hands of the Almighty God. Nothing to worry about. Just trust Him that He will never let me down and won't let anything harm me.

"Be still, and know that I'm God"

morning insights

2010-07-01T09:01:00.000+07:00

Be still and know that I'm God. As long as you are living with worry and stress, you are tying the hands of Almighty God. Be still and be in God's rest means that although you may have a problem, you trust Him to take care of it.
We don't grow nearly as much when everything is easy; we grow when life is difficult, when we are exercising our spiritual muscles, in the pressure spots.
You are where you are for a reason. Whatever it is, God will not allow anything to come into your life unless He has a purpose for it. You may not like it, you may be uncomfortable. But if you'll keep the right attitude, in the end, you will come out stronger and better off than you were before.
Faith doesn't always instantly deliver you, but it always carries you through.
One of the most important aspects of faith is trusting God even when we don't understand.

From Joel Osteen's Become a Better You ~ Embrace the place where you are

lovee these

2010-06-26T14:02:00.003+07:00

from decor8

I still love you - Israel New Breed

2010-06-19T00:14:00.000+07:00

And I have seen your tears
And I know your fears
But I still love you

So in this quiet time
Once again I'll remind you
That I still love you

Doesn't matter what you've done with your hiding
Doesn't matter if you run the light still shining
And I've caught you in My hand I understand
While you would questioned Me the uncertainty
But I still love, I still love, I still love you

You didn't hear Me
I still love, I still love, love you

*thank You God for loving me :)*

midnite post

2010-06-18T00:25:00.000+07:00

Can't sleep. Dr yg tdnya ngantuuk bgt, ga tau napa jm segini pun jdnya belum tidur2 jg. Byk pikiran maybe? Hmm.
Anw, this is the verse I had been reminded tonight:
"The steps of a good man are ordered by the LORD: and he delights in his way." Psalm 37:23
Just being reminded that even if things may seemed hard and we started to worry about tomorrow or what will happen next, please remind that God Himself had arranged our path, our steps beautifully. That nothing will happen to harm us. All things happen for our own good. Just trust Him. He will lead our steps.

All of my life, in every season, YOU are still God.

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2010-06-08T19:08:00.002+07:00

Alpha
Bravo
Charlie
Delta
Eco
Fox
Golf
Hotel
India
Juliet
Kilo
Lima
Mike
November
Oscar
Papa
Quebec
Romeo
Sierra
Tango
Union
Victor
Whisky
Xray
Yanky
Zulu

2010-06-07T08:25:00.000+07:00

28 When life is heavy and hard to take,
go off by yourself. Enter the silence. 29 Bow in prayer. Don’t ask questions:
Wait for hope to appear. 30 Don’t run from trouble. Take it full-face.
The “worst” is never the worst. 31 Why? Because the Master won’t ever
walk out and fail to return. 32 If he works severely, he also works tenderly.
His stockpiles of loyal love are immense. 33 He takes no pleasure in making life hard
(Lamentations 3)

2010-05-23T17:39:00.001+07:00

*You can stay on the shelf-You don't have to stretch. You don't have to deal with adversity, but your potential will remain locked up inside.
*No matter what comes against you in life, you are not buried. You are planted.
*Extraordinary people face extraordinary difficulties. But, we serve an extraordinary God!
*God will not let you go through more than you can handle.

I can do this!

verses of the day

2010-05-18T21:34:00.001+07:00

Ola :)
Lg nyoba ngepost by mobile. Ehehe
Anw, these are some verses I got reminded again today.
"Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am." Phil 4:13
"Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take." Josh 1:9

ijustlovethesephotos :)

2010-05-08T23:01:00.002+07:00

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may yay yay

2010-05-08T21:46:00.003+07:00

alohaa :)
waw, it has been weeks (or months?) i didn't write blog. kinda missing it. miss blogging, blogwalking, and lots of things i usually do. hoho
lotsa things happened since the last post. i got a job already (which is why i've been too busy n hv no time to update my blog ;p), i got my bachelor degree (it's Carol Joy, S.Ds now, yaay! finally! :D), then hmm what else. my bro moved in to my house for a temporary time coz his house is being renovated now. so my house is quite packed and felt like full of people, which is fun :) n not forget to mention, there's marvell -my almost 3 y.o nephew- too, which is so cute :)
anw, i'm no longer a student now. am already entered the world of work/career/job/whatever-they-call-it. some people have told me this before, and yes i admit it now: working world is like doing final project everyday (translate: dunia kerja itu ky TA setiap hari). haha! :D but eventhough sometimes it felt hard n so challenging, i'm grateful to have what i have now. cause it happened to bring out my potentials. so, go go joii! u can do this! :)
hmm what else to write yaa. hoho
got these random quotes from jpcc's breaking that i just read this evening:
*setiap manusia memiliki potensi untuk menyelesaikan masalahnya.
*God hasn't called me to be successful, He's called me to be faithful. ~Mother Theresa
*dalam kehidupan ini, Tuhan tidak memberi orang2 yg kamu ingini. tapi Tuhan memberi org2 yang kamu butuhkan. org2 itu datang untuk mengajarimu, menyakitimu, mencintaimu, dan menjadikan kamu sebagaimana seharusnya kamu.
*in our weakest moment, He is still God who never leaves us.
anw, i like this month's breaking, love the design, love the articles :)
that's all for now. am gonna read personal taste drama recap after this, then will go to sleep n rest. hoho
see ya again nxt time! ciao :)

quote for the day :)

2010-02-26T11:49:00.003+07:00

Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don't try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he's the one who will keep you on track. (Proverbs 3:5)

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2010-02-19T21:46:00.007+07:00

satu album isinya enaaaak semuaa. love love love it! :) :)

blom denger satu album ini sih, tp suka bgt sama lagu yg try sleeping with a brokenheart. been replaying it for multiple times :)

baru nntn dvdnya minggu ini. bagus. i love Zooey Deschanel. cantik :)

a must-see movie of the year, i guess. lucu, mengharukan, n banyak value positivenya. dan Aamir Khan lumayan ganteng jg. pdhl udah berumur jg yah.hihi :D filmnya hampir 3jem, tp bener2 ga berasa. pokonya baguss deh :) oya, klo mau baca postingan ini jg biar lebih yakin buat nntn. hehe

quote quote quote :)

2010-02-16T20:21:00.002+07:00

"I know the price of success: dedication, hard work, and an unremitting devotion to the things you want to see happen" ~Frank Lloyd Wright

"Hard work without talent is a shame, but talent without hard work is a tragedy" ~Robert Half

"When we do the best that we can, we never know what miracle is wrought in our life, or in the life of another." ~Helen Keller

"What we really want to do is what we are really meant to do. When we do what we are meant to do, money comes to us, doors open for us, we feel useful, and the work we do feels like play to us." ~Julia Cameron

"Do more than is required. What is the distance between someone who achieves their goals consistently and those who spend their lives and careers merely following? The extra mile." ~Gary Ryan Blair

eye candy

2010-02-10T13:49:00.005+07:00

blogwalking lagiii :D agak ga nyambung ya posting kali ini, dari gambar ruang kok malah trus jadi gambar anjing.ehehe biarin deh ;p all these images are from desire to inspire

2010-02-10T13:43:00.000+07:00

God doesn't miss a thing. He cares. He is able and willing to make all our wishes come true. Plus, He is a good God who never fail. So, why worry? (Hanna Carol)

missing nikki :(

2010-02-09T13:57:00.004+07:00

lagi pengen punya anjing lagi. tp kyny ga mgkn. tar sering ditinggal di rumah ga ada yg ngurusin lg. tp pengen.hiks

yayy!

2010-01-21T13:26:00.013+07:00

yesterday i've got my final project result and it's an A! yeay! finally :) smua perjuangan, kerja keras, begadang2 sampe kurang tidur, nangis2 sampe mimisan dsb akhirnya kebayar pas tau dpt nilai ini. thank God banget :) emang klo Tuhan udah janjiin bakal ngasih yang terbaik, walopun along the way rasanya berat sekali dan ga yakin bisa kesampean (lulus dan dpt nilai A), at the end pasti itu yg bakal terjadi. hehe kesannya lebay, tapi di waktu ngerjain TA ini gw jadi belajar banyak untuk tetep keep my faith in Him, n keep on moving, apalagi di saat2 designnya ga diterima mulu, dibilang ngerjainnya ga niat, dibilang ga mau dilulusin dll.hehe ahh thank God akhirnya lewat jg semuanya :) :)
anw i just wanna share some photos of my final project journey *ehem* :D

this below is my idea book
isinya sketsa2 desain, tanggalan, list of things to do, etc, pokonya yang berhubungan dengan TA n design saya tulis di sini.ehehe anw this sketchbook is handmade, by myself :)

my 'rumah hijau' interior layout

my display

'sidang' day 11.01.10
*maap sayah crop fotomu yah fen.ehehe :)

and this is the final result. yeay! :)

lulus dan tinggal tunggu wisuda ^^
semoga bs yudisium n wisuda bareng yah von, fel :)

Deo Gracias ^__^

iseng iseng berhadiah (lagi)

2010-01-18T17:07:00.000+07:00

Plegmatis
Merupakan seseorang yang memiliki sifat alamiah pendamai, tidak suka kekerasan. Merupakan orang yang mudah diajak bergaul, ramah, dan menyenangkan. Ia adalah tipe orang yang bisa membuat sekelompok orang tertawa terbahak-bahak oleh humor-humor keringnya meski ia sendiri tidak tertawa. Merupakan pribadi yang konsisten, tenang, dan jarang sekali terpengaruh dengan lingkungannya, tidak pernah terlihat gelisah. Di balik pribadinya yang dingin dan malu-malu, sesungguhnya ia memiliki kemampuan untuk dapat lebih merasakan emosi yang terkandung pada sesuatu. Karena sifatnya yang menyukai kedamaian dan tidak menyukai pertikaian, ia cenderung menarik diri dari segala macam keterlibatan. Hal inilah yang sering kali menghambatnya untuk menunjukkan kemampuannya secara total. Mereka hanya menggunakan 30%-50% dari kemampuan mereka.

yihaa!

2010-01-13T17:02:00.007+07:00

hola! i'm back! :)
uakhiirrrnyaaa beres juga TAnyaaaa... ahhh terimakasih Tuhan :) :) dan sangat2 berterimakasih jg buat smua yg udah bantuin, kasi support, semangat, dan lain sebagainya.. thx for my friends n family..love u all :)
jadi kmrn senin itu sayah sidang.. dpt giliran ketiga.. oya, seblum itu pagi2 nya jg adaaa aja kejadian bikin panik.. tapi untung akhirny situasi bisa jadi aman terkendali lg :) lalu lalu, pas sidang jg sbnrnya udah nyiapin powerpoint n potongan film gt juga.. eh tapi tau2nya disuru langsung presentasi di dpn display..yasudah deh.. anw presentasi, tanya jawab sgala macem berjalan dgn lancarrr.. dan pokonya mo ditanyain apapun gw tetep senyam senyum sajah..dan seinget gw kyny smua pertanyaan bs gw jawab dengan baik. lancar dan sukses deh smuanya.. thx God :)
tp dipikir2 slama ini kerja keras sgala macem buat TA ini kok cuma gitu doang ya sidangnya? haha *sombong :) well anw, skrg sih masi menanti pengumuman nilai n lulus ato ngganya.. tp pasti lulus lah :) :)
so i guess this is the beginning of another chapter for me.. bntar lagi masuk dunia kerja.. yay :) tp untuk smentara masi mau balas dendam tidur dulu sih. dan masi harus revisi skripsi dikit buat bs hard cover, pdhl udah enek jg liatnya.haha
ahh feel so grateful. thank God for everything :) :)
gonna end this post with this pic. it's my display, walopun agak kosong, i'm proud of it :)

first post in 2010. hello new year! :)

2010-01-01T19:29:00.004+07:00

just found these pictures here.
lucu yaaa... jd pengen main sama polar bear.. trus jd berharap suatu hari nanti gw bs ketemu langsung sama polar bear n panda jinak n bisa elus2. amin dehh! hihi
anw, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010! i'm excited for this new year, really believe that this year will be a greater year, better than 2009, and will see new things God has prepared for me. yay! excited :)
and i thank God for the past year, for all the blessings He gave, opportunities, memories, families, friends, everything and everyone. thanking God for the good and the bad that He has permit to be happened, cos it all happened to teach and help myself to become a better me. i'm so blessed :)
and i'm grateful too that the final judgement day (a.k.a sidang akhir) will be just less than 2 weeks ahead! freedom is near.. yay! walopun dalam wktu krg dr 2 minggu ini masih harus tetep kerja rodi ngerjain gambar kerja, gmbar presentasi, konsep, dan smua printilannya.. huwahh semangaat!
ih kok jd nulis panjang gini yah.hehe udah ah.. ciao :)

again, Gelukkig Nieuwjaar!! \(^^,)/

counting the days.

2009-12-19T14:14:00.003+07:00

it's 20 days to the D-day, the day i should submit all the drawings and friends.. and 23 days to the final judgement week (i dont what's 'sidang akhir' in english ;p)
ahh after this i will be freeeeeee.. yaayyy... i'm sooo longing to finish these all soon.
anw i already made calendars, to do list, counting the days post it, etc.. but somehow kok gw brasa masi nyantai yah.. kadang panik gila2an, kadang stress gila2an, kadang pasrah abis, dan kadang sangat sangat santai..haha
and this morning i found this in design*sponge..
and i thought i should make one like this on my bedroom wall! biar aura musti ngerjain cepet2nya lebih terasa. ehehe :D *but surely i have no time to make it :)
well anw,lg pengen nulis iseng aja. going back to work on my skripsi again.. hari ini targetnya mau selesein bab 4 paper skripsinya.. ayoo semangaaaat!!!

grateful for

2009-12-12T23:55:00.004+07:00

1. the opportunity to study design, dan bs sampe tahap skrg ini, tgs akhir.
2. sebulanan lagi bakalan bebas dari yang namanya skripsi.
3. it's already december, bentar lagi taon baru.
4. punya temen2 n kluarga yg supportive :)
5. topik ta gw walopun berat dan ribet tp unik, dan pasti ada nilai plus krn uniknya itu (poin yg ini bersyukur skaligus berharap jg sih ;p)

thank God for my life :)

short/long update

2009-12-12T22:55:00.005+07:00

hmmm just want to write a bit. this week hasn't been the best week for me. had to experience shock therapy, twice. oh well, trying to stand still, though i admit is not easy. dan abis ngalamin gini rasanya sangat tidak bersemangat sekali buat lanjutin ngerjain ta. rasanya pengen kabur aja, udah deh ga usah pake ta2an. gile yah, waktu ke sidang akhir udah tinggal sebulan kurang, tapi design gw pun masi blum diapprove sama si u-know-who. ga pernah kebayang seumur idup mo lulus bakal disusahin ky gini. seumur2 kuliah di untar pun jg ga pernah sesusah ini rasanya. DI1 sampe 5 bisa lulus lancar2 aja, tp knp lg ta gini susah bener yah. dan abis ngalamin shock therapy gini, rasanya slama ini gw ga bisa desain, rasanya ky jd ga pede sama desain sendiri. dan rasanya sangat menyesal napa gw pilih topik ta ini. smurrf!
tp anw maren gw nntn sermonnya ps jose yg when u stop growing. dan dari situ gw jd diingetin bbrapa hal. i'll just paste it from my journal.
* ketika orang lain ga mengerti dirimu, ato mgkn lo disalahmengerti, ketika lo harus belajar mengerti orang lain, bahkan sama orang yang mgkn umurnya udah jauh di atas kamu, itu brarti Tuhan kasi kamu kesempatan untuk jadi lebih dewasa, bahkan lebih dewasa dari org itu. Dan kyny ini ngena banget sama gw. Gw harus ngertiin si u-know-who, this is a time n opportunity for me to grow wiser n more mature.
*ketika kamu dihadapin beban apapun, mau di keluarga, kerjaan, kuliah, or in my case skripsi. Rasanya bebannya berat sekali, but it’s the opportunity for u to grow. untuk streching ur faith, ur ability n ur capability. Ky otot yg distrech waktu work out, rasanya sakit, but next time otot itu jadi udah terlatih untuk menghadapi beban yang lebih berat. So it’s a work out time for me now. Rasanya sakit, but I’ll enjoy it when it’s over.

n ini jg bbrp yg gw dpt dr buku joel osteen:
*keep singing ur song. Despite of things negative that happens, we still have joy in our hearts. Sing ur song means u’re being grateful to God, and believing that He takes care of you, and He will turn your situation around on time. So, be grateful, keep on praising Him. He’s good.
*smile! Even if you don’t have any reason to smile. Smile by faith. Smiling sends a message to your whole body that everything is going to be okay. Be grateful n smile!
*believing is different than expecting. Believing is passive, expecting is active. So when u’re expecting for God to turn your situation around, u’re doing something about it. we do the best that we can do, and let God do what we cannot do. Leave the rest to Him.

ahh *tarik napas dalem2, buang*

okeh, banyak belajar dan diingetin jg sih. tp emang susah2 gampang yah. hr ini udah berusaha supaya tetep semangat dan berjuang buat lanjutin revisi ta, tp sejujurnya sayah mengakui klo sampe saat ini pun ms blum berhasil. udah buka max n cad seharian tp yg baru gw kerjain cuma ngerender design lobby yg kmrnan, pdhl itu pun udah ditolak sama si u-know-who. hiks

ok i run out of words now.

chat with God

2009-12-12T22:45:00.002+07:00

God : Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No.. Who is this ?

God : This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat.

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

God : What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I cant find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God : Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity
consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God : Well I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God : Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

Me: why are we then constantly unhappy?

God : Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God : Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty. .

God : Pain is inevitable able, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God : Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life become better not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God : Yes. In every terms, Experience is a hard teacher . She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why cant we be free from problems?

God : Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons (to) Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you! Are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading..

God : If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction. What should I do?

God : Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God : Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God : when they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I cant get the answer.

God : Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God : Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God : There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat.

God : Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve not a problem to resolve..

*sigh

2009-12-07T21:40:00.003+07:00

ahh.. had too many sighs today. and i admit that lately i've been taking deep sighs too often. *sigh* these too shall pass! things are getting better n i will make it! amen.
i'm trying to keep on reminding myself that He let things happened for my own good. now He is streching my faith in Him n in myself too. so many things to learn, especially in trusting n laying all my worries down to Him.
anw i just want to quote this song lyric, Let God be God by Craig Phillips. havent heard the song tune til now, but i like the lyric. Let God be God.

He‘s In Lifezone
And a blended sea of stars begin to shine
You set bird sing
And million melodies spilled up the sky
You set this world
Spinning through a crowded Milky Way
Whether the sun comes up
And the sun goes down
And God doesn‘t seem to need my help
The one who owns the sea and planes
Is watching down for every step I take

I think I‘ll let God be God, I‘m giving up control
I think I‘ll relax, step back, It‘s time for letting go
If you get the universe and say
A million years of soles
It‘s just the keeper of the creation knows
I think I‘ll let God be God

You clap your hands
The thunder rolls and the lightning filles the sky
You breath new life
A tiny new born baby starts to cry
The time rolls in and it rolls back out
And never has God needed me to help
The wanted seas and sparrow fall
It‘s what I needed before I even call

Yeah, nothing takes you by surprise
Never laid on ways on time
The one who owns the sea and planes
Is watching down for every step I take

concrete cloth

2009-11-27T20:52:00.005+07:00

found one new innovative material for interior/architecture via dezeen. it's concrete cloth by concrete canvas. and it's sustainable too, i guess. the material consists of cement layered between fabric that can bond with water, backed with PVC. it can be formed into the required shape then allowed to absorb water, causing it to set after two hours.
jadi intinya bisa bikin bentuk macem2 dengan cara yang gampang, cepet, dan ramah lingkungan. kerenn :)

anw, this is the list of things i need to finish before my final judgement (next january 2010).
dan di evaluasi 3 yg jadwalnya awal desember nanti, semua yg di tabel pertama (gambar kerja) diharapkan udah selesai, plus konsep desain per ruang terpilih yang dibikin di A1. jeng jeng jengggg..
tiap kali ngeliat daftar ini rasanya darah mengalir ke seluruh badan, dan deg2an.haha
dan saat ini gw masi berkutat dengan layout n desain. padahal eva3 tinggal semingguan lagi. yihaa

"i can do all things thru HIM who gives me strength"
ayoo semangat joii kamu bisaaaa!!!

cork material - fyi

2009-11-25T00:16:00.005+07:00

wondering why belum banyak yang pake bahan gabus (cork) buat interior/products, and while searching the infos about cork and other green/sustainable materials for my final project, i found this article :)
Just about every tree has an outer layer of cork bark, but the cork oak (Quercus suber) is the primary source of most cork products in the world, including wine bottle stoppers. These trees primarily grow in countries that run along the coast of the Mediterranean Sea, where there's plenty of sunshine, low rainfall and high humidity. The countries that produce the most cork include Portugal, Algeria, Spain, Morocco, France, Italy and Tunisia.

So, why does the cork oak have a thicker layer of cork bark than other trees? The tree evolved to protect itself from the harsh conditions of the forests near the Mediterranean. These forests experience frequent droughts, brush fires and temperature fluctuations. Cork is actually made of water-resistant cells that separate the outer bark from the delicate interior bark. It has a unique set of properties not found in any other naturally existing material. It is lightweight, rot resistant, fire resistant, termite resistant, impermeable to gas and liquid, soft and buoyant. It's these properties that make it ideal for stopping wine bottles and tile flooring. Let's take a look at how cork gets stripped from the tree and processed into consumer products.

* Stripping the bark -- A cork oak must be at least 25 years old before its bark can be harvested. Its cork can then be stripped every 8 to 14 years after that for as long as the tree lives. The cork is stripped off during June, July and August using a long-handled hatchet to cut sections out of the bark. These sections are then pried away from the tree. Workers must be careful not to damage the inner layer of the bark, otherwise the bark won't grow back.
* Washing the cork -- The cork slabs that are cut away from the tree are boiled and the rough outer layer of the bark is stripped away. Boiling the cork also softens it, making it easier to work with.
* Punching Bottle Stoppers -- From the slabs of cork, holes are punched out to make bottle stoppers. This leaves the slabs full of holes. These bottle stoppers are then sorted and shipped to various destinations. The stoppers can at this time be printed or branded with names or logos.
* Uses for Scrap Cork -- Once the bottle stoppers have been punched out of the cork slabs, there is some leftover cork scrap. This scrap is ground up, molded into large blocks and baked in ovens to make other cork products, such as cork tile flooring and cork message boards.

Cork has been used as bottle stoppers for more than 400 years. It is possibly the best suited material to use as a bottle stopper because it contains a natural waxy substance, called suberin. This substance makes cork impermeable to liquids and gas, and prevents the cork from rotting.

from howstuffworks. image: wikipedia.

Sbab aku ini milikMu - Sari Simorangkir

2009-11-18T18:57:00.003+07:00

Tuhan Engkau mendengar
seruan hatiku
dan keluhku tak tersembunyi bagiMu

dalam kesesakanku
kumau berdiam
dan berharap padaMu
Yesus Kau sumber kekuatanku

*reff
sbab aku ini milikMu
aku di dalam hatiMu
kasih setiaMu yang menghidupkan aku
sbab aku ini milikMu
tak kupertahankan hidupku
biar kehendakMu kerjakanlah dalamku

anugrah dan kuasaMu
mengubah hatiku
tuk selalu berserah
sepenuhnya hanya kepadaMu

eco-friendly art

2009-11-10T19:24:00.004+07:00

i always love browsing the inhabitat web. banyak design/art keren yg pake bahan2 eco-friendly/recycled. klo yg ini bahan cardboard/corrugated paper (ky bahan buat kardus) yg dibuat jadi replika mobil/motor,dibuat ky ukuran aslinya.keren! bahkan sampe mesin mobilnya dibikin jg.hebat yah :)
the artist: chris gilmour

~the tenth day of november~

2009-11-10T17:07:00.005+07:00

feels like christmas is already near. and i’m happy! :) padahal klo dipikir2,klo natal udah deket, brarti sidang akhir TA jg makin deket.hahaha *ketawa nanar* oh well, just want to enjoy the days i have now. tahun depan pasti udah beda udah ga ky gini lagi,bhkn waktu2 begadang buat bikin skripsi pun bakal ga ada lagi tahun depan, i’m gonna miss it then. so i have to enjoy it :) *skrg ngomongnya gampang,lg ga stres soalnya.ehehe*
hari ini jakarta menyenangkan. hujan rintik2,ga terlalu deras, mendung2 adem ayem, lagu di radio enak2.. ahh rasanya nyetir mobil jadi menyenangkan td. nyampe di rumah pun bawaannya pengen nyetel lagu jazz ato lagu natal.hihi :)
anw skrg masih mencari2 ide buat tugas akhir. blom bner2 kebayang mau bikin ky apa desainnya.bingung. ceritanya kn skrg disuru coba sketsa2 bagian entrance dulu. masa si dosen gw maren itu kasi ide bikin ada dinosaurus, gantung burung2an dsb di entrance gw?jadi bingung, emang gw desain rumah hijau apa desain kebun binatang yah?haha haduu bikin bingung aja tu bapak.spertinya dia blum begitu mengerti project gw.tp maklum jg sih udah berumur,klo mau coba jelasin lagi dianya ky susah dibilangin.jd gw manggut2 aja deh.hoho pdhl pengennya gw,mau gabungin antara modern kontemporer sama green design, tp ya gitu deh, ms blom bener2 nemu celahnya. kyny blom 'tiiing!!!' *nyala lampunya* klo udah 'tingg!' enak tuh desainnya pasti lancar.. jadi..ahh semoga cepet ketemu deh ide briliannya :) :)
oya,nemu ini tadi di inhabitat
ini recycled paperpulp cabinet, made by debbie wijskamp. pas baca paperpulp, langsung kebayang boleh juga nih buat ini nanti klo udah slese skripsi, secara kertas bekas jadi banyak di rumah (skripsi = pemborosan kertas, ngeprint terusss) lumayan kn klo kertas itu bisa dibikin barang lain lagi (go green!!) yah,dikumpulin dulu idenya.this is a great idea i think :)
hmm another updates for today:
*semalem mimpi kim bum! tp kim bumnya ngomong bahasa belanda.aneh yaa.haha :D ;D
*hari ini udah minum air putih pake botol minum 600ml-an 5 kali. jadi klo ditotal gw udah minum 6x500ml = 3 liter! haha saya seperti onta (ato gentong yah?hihi)
*mom n dad are coming tomorrow! yay! :) :)
*devotion pagi ini: let God be God.. mgkn byk hal yg terjadi itu ga sesuai harapan kita, rasanya byk hal yg bikin pusing dsb, dan jadi beban buat kita krn kita keep on struggling to find out and solve it all by ourselves. tp dr devotion pagi in gw jadi diingetin, let God be God. Dia Tuhan yg punya hidup kita, dan surely He is far more greater than any problems/challenges we face. just give the total control to Him, trust Him, n dont worry, cause He will take a good care of our life. everything happens for a reason, n it is for our own good. so, i want to say this to myself n to everyone who read this: smangaaatt!! dont worry be happy :) :)

good habit vs bad habit

2009-11-09T13:23:00.004+07:00

ola :)
pagi ini gw bangun susahnyaaa minta ampun.tapi akhirnya decide klo gw terus2an males2an bakal jadi buang2 waktu.yang harusnya waktunya bs dipake buat ngerjain sesuatu jadi kebuang gt aja.jadi akhirnya gw bangun, n abis bangun baru nyadar klo listriknya mati lagi *pantesan panas.hehe dan krn mati lampu ga tau mau ngapain, gw lanjut baca buku joel osteen yang udah tertinggal beberapa minggu ini ;p
this time i read the 'feed your good habits' chapter. have read it before but somehow i felt i need to read it again today. i admit that these days bawaannya tuh pengen ngeluh, males2an, ga semangat, dst, hal2 sebenernya itu bad habit. dan klo diterusin lama2 bisa jadi kebiasaan.so i need to stop doing that. *still learning.wish me luck :)
so, here are some things from the reading..
*on the inside of every person a battle is raging between two wolves. one wolf is evil. it's angry, jealous, unforgiving, proud, and lazy. the other wolf is good. it's filled with love, kindness, humility, and self-control. these two wolves are constantly fighting. and which wolf is going to win? it is whichever one you feed.
so if you keep on feeding the negative habits, then you'll see those negatives developed in your life. but if you feed the good habits, you'll see those good characters developing in your life.
*feeding good habits is like doing a work out in gym. at the first time it felt really hard, your whole body felt pain n ache, but once you get used to it, the pain is no longer hard for you to take n exercise would be something easy for you to do.
awal2nya pasti susah, tp begitu kita udah bs fight n keep on doing that, semuanya bakal jadi gampang.. so, smangat joii kamu bisa!!
*it is not so much that we break bad habits; we must replace them.
jadi klo in my case misalnya, klo stres bawaannya pengen makan muluu (jalan ke dapur/ruang makan, cari makanan, makan terus jadinya ;p), gw harus cari hal lain yg bisa dilakukan klo gw stress lagi. hmm blom kepikiran sih.. apa yahhh..hoho

well, those are some lessons to learn again. wish me luck ;p

ngidam di tengah malam

2009-11-06T00:34:00.003+07:00

begini nih klo stress.bawaannya pengen makan mulu ;p

Do It Anyway

2009-11-05T15:00:00.001+07:00

People are often unreasonable, illogical,
and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, People may accuse you
of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some
false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and frank,
people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.

What you spend years building, someone
could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness,
they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.

The good you do today,
people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.

Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway

written by Mother Theresa

another test

2009-11-04T21:18:00.002+07:00

iseng2 ngisi test psikologi situasi di fb :)

Dear Carol Joy Rondeel, berikut ini adalah hasil Test psikologi situasi kamu:

* kamu orang yang suka sharing
* kamu agak pemilih soal teman dan hanya berteman dengan mereka yang selevel dengan kamu
* apa yang kamu inginkan dalam hidupmu cuma setengah terpenuhi
* kamu lemah dalam hidup ini dan cenderung rapuh
* kamu memiliki gairah seks tinggi
* kamu punya banyak teman baik
* hubungan terakhir kamu baik dan masih hangat dalam memorimu
* ketika pasanganmu di dekat kamu, kamu akan melirik yang lain
* ketika pasangan kamu tidak ada, kamu masih memikirkan dia dan akan tetap setia padanya, tidak melirik yang lain
* ego kamu rata-rata
* kepribadianmu rendah hati
* ikatan dengan tidak teman-temanmu tidak begitu kuat/sedang-sedang aja
* kamu benar-benar suka/mencintai pasanganmu
* pasanganmu type rumahan dan orang yang sederhana
* kamu akan mencari pasanganmu kapanpun kamu ketemu masalah.

resultnya agak kurang akurat sih menurut sayah.ehehe oh well, iseng2 berhadiah :)

smurf.

2009-10-30T23:11:00.003+07:00

i'm sooo not in the mood of doing anything. dont know why. ehm maybe i know a bit. this and that.
just felt that my mood is swinging so easily. tired of it. tired of being controlled by surroundings n circumstances. i know i shouldn’t be like that. but i ended up like this, so many times.
huff.. smurf smurf smurf..
anw i like the word smurf now. just remember about the smurfs, the comic story about the small blue creatures living in smurf village. it has been years i havent read those stories again, and suddenly i miss reading it again. but where could they be found by now? hoho
well back to the word smurf. the smurfs like to talk in smurf language, such like, 'i'm smurfing to the smurf', 'nice to smurf you', etc. it's just random i guess. so i like to say it, cause it's random. hehe
ahh enough for now. just smurfing around. smurf smurf :)

indomie selerakuuu :)

2009-10-30T18:39:00.004+07:00

did some food experiments with indomie last month, forgot to post it here. nyumm :)

another random post

2009-10-26T18:31:00.002+07:00

had too much euphoria since the last 3 hours. siang ini dpt gud news, dpt dua nama penguji buat eva2 n sidang akhir nanti. dan pengujinya bukan yang aneh2..jadi, terimakasih Tuhan :) :) rasanya senaaang, bahagia, tenang, tp kok jadi tambah males ngerjain TAnya yah.hahaha padahal eva2 tinggal itungan hari nih kynya.n there's still so much to do. huff
anyway untuk menyemangati diri gw kembali buat ngerjain TA, gw iseng nyari2 preview Earth Movie by Disney di youtube. hv u seen this film? gw udah nntn bbrapa bulan yang lalu, filmnya bagussssss bangettttt!! pengambilan gambarnya, suasananya, pencahayaannya, semuanya deh.. love this movie so much. dan klo ngeliat film ini tuh rasanya jadi stunned by the greatness of our God. ada bagian di film ini yang ky ngasi liat pohon2an yang berbunga2an gitu,dari bunga2nya masi kuncup, sampe bunganya mekar, trus dari pohonnya masi berwarna kekuning2an krn lg musim gugur, trus kering pas winter, trus mulai berbunga lagi pas spring, n berubah warna lagi pas summer. kereennnn banget. dan sutradarany tuh ngambil gambar filmnya tuh ky muter gitu, ah ga bs jelasinnya secara ga ngerti soal film-maker jg, tapi yang pasti ini film keren bgt. klo ga salah mereka sampe beberapa tahun gt buat bikin film ini. keren deh. trus jg banyak binatang2nya, dari polar bear, bebek2an, burung2an, pinguin, dan lain sebagainya. so, klo buat orang yang sayang binatang n suka nature pasti suka banget deh, including me.hehe
tp agak sedih jg nontonnya. si polar bear yang diceritain dari awal tuh kesian gitu, nyari makannya susah. secara daratan es habitatnya aja udah pada mulai meleleh, trus dia nyari makannya kan musti jalan jg kan. klo berenang terus kan ga kuat. endingnya agak menyedihkan jg, dianya masi tetep jalan terus, wandering around nyari makan. dan ga tau stelah udah ga disyut lagi filmnya,apa dia akhirnya dapet makan ato ngga. kasian yah..
ahh mau kasi liat previewnya ga bisaaa.huh!mau di-embed dr youtube, di-disabled. mau upload dr donlotan gw sndiri jg ga bisa. oh well.. yasudahlah..
rencananya pgn kasi liat preview video film ini ato film Home pas sidang akhir TA gw nanti (rencananyaaa ;p) kn soalnya bertema lingkungan gitu kan, untuk ngasi liat pentingnya kita jaga kelestarian dan keindahan lingkungan yg ada. dan dari film ini aja jg udah tersirat klo bumi itu (terutama ky polar bear dan makhluk hidup di dalamnya), udah pada mulai susah gara2 terjadinya global warming n climate change. jadi peran manusia itu penting buat menjaga alam.
udah mulai mikir nih buat presentasi sidang nanti (padahal skrg aja layout belum mulai gw utak atik.ha!), pengen pake video ky begini, trus jg bikin video 3d interior projectnya. blom pernah nyoba sih bikin video 3d itu, katanya sih lama ngerendernya klo ky gitu. tp sepertinya menarik klo ada video 3d itu jg, dan jadi lebih berasa kan suasana dalam ruangnya. so, we'll see. apakah nanti akhirnya bs pake video itu jg ato ga.hehe mudah2an bisa :) *yg bisa bikin video 3d mohon bantuannya yah,mo minta diajarin.ehehe ;p
ayo semangat lagi! ciayooo :)

some quotes i found this afternoon:

"You were born to win, but to be a winner, you must plan to win, prepare to win, and expect to win." - Zig Ziglar
"To be successful, you must decide exactly what you want to accomplish, then resolve to pay the price to get it."
"The challenge is not to manage time, but to manage ourselves." - Steven Covey

learning to manage myself. still hard on doing that. wish me luck!

love these

2009-10-23T23:09:00.007+07:00

found this creative idea by monika jarg in design*sponge. she drilled holes into the wood, and weave it with fibers. it created a carpet look alike. creative isn't it? :)

and this is something easy to make for home decoration. got this from creative mint.

interesting wall graphic from etsy store Elly Nelly via laissezfaire. little humans above the sink. funny :)

wedding decorations, party favors, gift ideas by Beau-Coup. looking thru their web made me want to get married soon ;p

friday nitey random post

2009-10-23T22:18:00.006+07:00

holaa ;)
been busy these days working on some design projects. but eventhough it's tiring and makes me spent most of my time for that, it feels good when it's already finished. and it makes me drink more water and eat less food. haha so it's good for me to be busy working :)
anw i just played cafeworld for a while. here is my cafe, eat@d'corner :)
ahh.. have to work on my skripsi again. havent touch it again since last week i guess. feels like not doing it. want to play and sleep and read and play again and leyeh-leyeh and so on. but eva2 is coming soon in 2 weeks! huff -__-
hope that after this i could make some remarkable progress of my skripsi. ayo smangaat joii! \(",)/

cooking dash

2009-10-13T19:11:00.008+07:00

ahh kangen ngepost di blog.hehe
mau iseng nulis ttg my recent food experiment :)
ceritanya kemarenan itu gw rencananya mau masak pasta buat date. dulu kn pernah bawa spaghetti, nah kali ini mau bawa penne critanya, ky yg terakhir gw bikin. klo mau liat klik disini. nah bahan2nya emang agak beda dikit, dan yang pasti kali ini bikin lebih banyak, pake 2 bungkus penne. awal2 masak masi lancar tuh ceritanya. nah pas mau nyampur saus sama pennenya disaster dimulai. pennenya nempel smua, dan krn gw mau campur sama sausnya, pennenya jadi ancurrr..huahh sedih deh,bingung abis tu waktu masak,kok jadi gagal gini.hehe akhirnya, yah setelah berbingung2an ria, gw memutuskan untuk ga bawa ini penne, dan pesen makan aja.ahaha :D
rasanya abis ngalamin gini jadi males masak pasta lagi. apalagi penne.huh ngabisinnya aja susah, udah 4 hari baru abis (abisnya yg makan cuma 2 org :)) tapi kt temen gw emang klo masak tuh gitu, trial n error. jadi harus tetep semangat walopun yg kali kemaren gagal.hehehe
oya, ini nih tampang penne gagal kemaren itu. bentuk pennenya yang harusnya ky tabung jadi ancur2 gitu, dan waktu masak gw berasanya ky kok kurang gurih mulu yah.hehe tapi sih pas dicoba si cici katanya enak2 aja.hoho here's the picture..
trus, kemaren gw iseng masak nasi goreng.abisnya bosen abis.hmm ga tau napa yah,kok akhir2 ini gw lebih semangat bikin masakan daripada ngerjain skripsi ato yang lain2.haha apa salah masuk jurusan yah?hihi well anyway, hasil eksperimen kemaren seperti ini..
i call this: maïs gebakken rijst met mango. bhs indonya: nasi goreng jagung pake mangga. ehehe seperti biasa pake bumbu Provençaalse juga. rasanya lumayan lah.hehe senang :)

thursday morning insights ^^

2009-10-08T09:01:00.005+07:00

good morning :)
just start my day writing journal, and i feel so grateful for everything. for the past, present, and future. maybe sometimes i want things to happen exactly the way i wanted it to be, but then it happened in a different way. i dont understand it at first, get a bit disappointed. but after a while, i can see that He is giving me the best, that i couldnt think of before. so, i feel soo grateful :)
had a friend texted me this:

How much does God loves you?
So much that He turns His ears to you and always answers your requests.
Maybe not always with a 'yes',
but surely with the best! :)

so, it's not always a yes, but surely the best. and sure, the best is still yet to come. it keeps on coming. thanks God :)
oya, i admit that sometimes i see the past negatively, felt stupid for the things i did, the mistakes i did, and regret the things i should have done but havent done it at all. but anyway, yesterday is past, we cant do anything to fix it. what we can do is to keep on walking ahead, living our best today, and become better for tomorrow. still, be grateful :)

life is a journey, not a destination.
there are no mistakes, just chances we've taken.
lay down your regrets, cause all we have is now.

it's a song by india arie, titled a beautiful day. love this song so much :) it's really a good song to start a day. see the complete lyric here and be blessed ^^
have a great day! :)

tree and deer bookshelves

2009-10-07T15:29:00.000+07:00

pretty nursery

2009-10-07T15:15:00.001+07:00

love the hanging decoration on the ceiling :)
to see more images, see ashleyannphotography

fresh fruity notes

2009-10-07T14:58:00.002+07:00

quiz.quiz.quiz

2009-10-07T13:14:00.006+07:00

did some quizzes on blogthings. here's my result :)

You Think Best in Your Bedroom
In order to be able to think, you need to feel like you have some privacy and space.
It's likely that you spent a lot of time in your bedroom while you were growing up. It's your sanctuary.
You need a high level in control in your life, especially when you have something important to do.
The best thing about your room is that it's exactly the way you like it. Having things the way you want allows you to relax and think.

Your Primary Mood Color is Yellow
You are a enthusiastic and cheerful soul. You have a real zest for life.
You have as many troubles as anyone else, but you believe it's important to have a sunny outlook.
Life is what you make of it, and you strive to make your life as awesome as possible.
You believe in happy endings. You are willing to put your a lot on the line in hopes that things will work out.

Deep Down You Are Sensitive
You're the type of person who notices everything and forgets nothing. You are very in tune with the world.
You feel deeply, and sometimes the silliest things can effect you. You are easily brought to laughter or tears.
You don't show the world how fragile you are. You instead show people how insightful you can be.
You are good at anticipating what's going to happen in your life. You are often the first one to see what's coming.

You are Energetic and Bright
You view people with optimism. You have many meaningful relationships in your life.
You had more conflict with your father than your mother. Your relationship with him was difficult and possibly unhealthy.
You don't deal with stress well. Even moderately stressful events tend to send you in a tailspin.
You are a natural multitasker. You enjoy being busy, even if the amount of things you need to do is overwhelming.

hmm,dont know why did i like to do personality quizzes like these ;p but somehow by doing these i understand myself better.hehe the last quiz kinda amazed me, it's the ink blot test. klo dipikir2 psikolog itu hebat yah, bisa liat personality orang dari gambar2 yang dia pilih, tulisan tangannya, dsb. kok bisa yah..hehe sometimes the results are wrong,but most of the time it's true.hehe hebat yah. dan krn itu jg,klo ketemu psikolog ato orang yang bs baca orang lain itu bawaannya suka serem,takut dibaca.hihi is it only me, ato orang2 lain gitu jg yah, klo ketemu mereka jadi suka serem sendiri?ehehe ;p
well anyway, if you want to try these quizzes by yourself, just for fun, try blogthings. they have lots of quizzes. hehe selamat mencoba :)

feeling craftee

2009-10-06T17:54:00.003+07:00

~from gennine's art blog

one done.horee :)

2009-10-06T13:44:00.003+07:00

having a skripsi day off.yay :D akhirnya kmrn lewat jg eva 1-nya.lumayan udah lewat satu,but there's still three more to go, eva 2 n 3 plus sidang akhir. dan br tau kmaren jg, tnyata eva 2nya akhir bulan ini jg.jd ga bisa lama2 nyantai stlah eva1.
but thank God kmrn evanya lancar.yay :) palingan tar musti revisi penulisan skripsinya.ngeprint lagi deh.buang kertas lagi..
tp yg kurang lancar pas eva sama bu har tuh.krn udah ngantuk banget saking kelamaan nunggunya (dr jm 10 br jm 2 dpt giliran, pas nunggu aja smpt ketiduran ;p) pas ditanya2 soal proyek gw jawabnya agak2 ngawur gitu.duh ky orang baru bangun tidur gitu deh,hun2. mau ngomong tp lupa kata2nya apa.haha gawat.klo inget lagi jadi malu gw.hehe but anyway kyny dia ngerti jg lah gw udah ngantuk n cape.dianya jg cape spertinya.hehe oiya pas slese dia bilang klo nanti udah lulus gw disuru bikin proyek benerannya jg di indo. amiinnn deh bu.. :)
huff.lagi mau ngedit2 foto tp nunggu picnik loading lama sekali..
oya, lagi suka banget sama lagunya david archuleta yang touch my hand.. enak deh.udah diulang2 terus di playlist itunes gw. trus jg lagunya susan wong yang a thousand dreams of you..me likes :)
btw brapa hari ini,bawaannya jadi lupaan mulu. dulu2 emang udah gampang lupaan sih, tp kyny kok akhir2 ini jadi makin2 yah.ckck trus jd suka ga nyambung.kdg2 suka bertanya pertanyaan yang akhirnya gw bingung sndiri sbnrnya gw ngomong apa sih.haha gawat.mgkn krn kurang tidur jg kali yah. ato overloaded sama skripsi.. hoho well anyway i guess i need some refreshment..
hmm..that's all for now. gonna find something refreshing to do after this.hehe