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tuesday nite,n i'm feeling not rite.tugas banyak banget!!sebenernya ga banyak,cuma satu matkul doang tp yang msti dikerjain banyak.mana dosen tuh ada2 aja mintanya.huahh emangnya dosen diciptain buat nyusahin kita yah.huhu
it just felt tidak menyenangkan hari-hari ini.moodnya jadi ga gtu baik.banyak pikiran,pdhl klo ditanya apa yang dipikirin gw jg ga tau mo jawab apa,bingung jg.huahh life just felt uneasy.we want things happen n people act the way we want to,but in reality it's not.dan sebenernya gw udah terbiasa dari dulu ky gtu,mau apa kga kesampean ya udah,easygoing aja,terima aja.these days si gw bisa bilang gw fine2 aja,tp sbenernya i keep wondering why.hoho ga jelas yah gw nulis apa. :)
huahh anyway i only have two days to finish my library design concept.but you know to start working i need some warming ups.jadi yah ky gini nih.smpet2in nulis blog.hoho
td pagi gw udah semangat tuh,nongkrong di perpus ampir 2 jeman,udah mule coret2,bikin sebagian layout,udah mulai kebayang designnya ky apa,n then td dibilangin klo si pa emil maunya ini itu bla bla bla.huh jd males lagi deh gw.but i have to finish it before friday.huhu
anyway the good news is that mom's here in jakarta today!yay!untuk seminggu lebih ke depan bakal lebih terjamin hidup gw.hehe thank God i have her :)

last thing to say: life is hard,but God is good.circumstances may discomfort me,but i'm learning to trust that He is always good.it's a truth.all things are for the good of those people who love and trust Him. :)

My life is in Ur hands by Kathy Trocolli

Life can be so good
Life can be so hard
Never knowing what each day
Will bring to where you are
Sometimes I forget
And sometimes I can't see
That whatever comes my way
You'll be with me

**
My life is in your hands
My heart is in your keeping
I'm never without love
Not when my future is with you

My life is in your hands
And though I may not see clearly
I will lift my voice and sing
Cause your love does amazing things
Lord, I know, my life is in your hands

Nothing is for sure
Nothing is for keeps
All I know is that your love
Will live eternally
So I will find my way, yes
And I will find my peace
Knowing that you'll meet my every need

(**)

When I'm at my weakest love
You carry me
Then I become my strongest love
In your hands

My life is in your hands
And though I may not see clearly
I will lift my voice and sing
Cause your love does amazing things
Lord, I know, my life is in your hands
I trust you Lord
My life is in your hands

Carry You by Amy Grant

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child
Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child

'Cause I can walk on water
And calm a restless sea
I've done a thousand things you've never done

And I'm weary watchin'
While you struggle on your own
Call my name, I'll come

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child
Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child

I give vision to the blind
And I can raise the dead
I've seen the darkest side of Hell
And I returned
And I see those sleepless nights
And I count every tear you cry
I know some lessons hurt to learn

Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry you, my child, my child
Lay down your burden, I will carry you
I will carry carry, my child, my child


I will carry you, my child, my child
I will carry you

yaayyy!!!

horee..finally visa bokap jadi juga.stelah bolak balik mulu ke kedutaan di gkbi,skrg ga usa kesana lagi.hohoho yahh mungkin next time klo msti ngurus visa lagi disana it's for my own trip.haha amiiinnnn!!!! :)
hari ini ujian tinjauan desain sama rab(rencana anggaran biaya klo ga salah singkatannya.haha) yg TD tadi ujian pagi jm 8.kurang lebih stengah jem udah selese.lumayan gampang si.udah dikasi kisi2 kemarenan.udah ngapalin sambil nyetir tadi pagi.hehe walopun ada satu nomer yang gw ga tau jawabannya apaan tapi at least kurang lebih jwbannya dpt d.ehh tapi dodolnya gw..selese ujian baru nyadar dikasi tau temen gw,tnyata tu ujian openbook!haha untung gw emang beneran bisa tadi.klo gw udah ga bisa,trus ga tau klo openbook kan nyesel banget tuh.haha tapi emang enak bgt ni ujian tadi.masa udah dikasi kisi2 yang jawabannya paling masing2 nomer ada 3-4 poin,masi open book jg.ckckck kurang apa coba tu dosen.dijamin luluuss semua.hahaha
trus jadi abis itu bisa langsung jalan ke gkbi,bareng sama olive n vone,lumayan jadi ada 2 jockey buat ngelewatin 3 in 1.hehehe trus smpet nunggu agak lama di kedutaan,tapi pas dikasi paspornya rasanya seneengg banget.pdhl bukan paspor gw yah.abisnya kynya perjuangan gw cukup banyak buat ngurusin visa ini.pake ada nangis sgala lagi gara2 diomelin bokap.huahua akhirrnyyaaa..felt so relieved after that.hoho thx God :) jadi tadi sore langsung kirim deh ke palembang.huahh mission accomplished!yay! :)
abis itu jadi balik ke kampus lagi masi ada waktu buat nyantai2 sblom ujian rab jm 1.ujiannya full 1,5 jem ngitung2 material interior.huahuah anyway beres lah tadi ujian hari ini..jadi udah lewat 3 ujian..hoho masi ada 5 lagi..CIAYOO2 \(^^,)/
oya hari gw ga date.tadi ketiduran..jem 8 kurang baru bangun..haha kacau nih.nempel dikit ke ranjang udah langsung bles tidur.maren jg.haha gawat.padahal musim begadang blom mulai.ckckck
anyway felt so grateful for everything coz it's all GREAT!hoho walopun keuangan lagi seret.padahal baru tanggal segini yahh.hehe tapi it's all great..thank YOU God! :)

what a day

today has been a 'wow' day.pagi2 udah diomeli2in n ngomel balik sama bokap gw.untungnya lewat telpon.klo langsung sih mgkn gw ga bakal bisa ngomel balik,secara klo lagi marah gw bawaannya pgn nangis.tadi aja ngomel2 udah dgn suara bergetar nahan supaya ga break out n cry.huahh
blakangan ini gw sibuk ngurusin visanya bokap gw buat ke south africa.dan to let u know,gw udah empat kali bolak balik ke sana,trmasuk hari ini.dipikir2 hebat jg yah gw,cewe sndirian ngurus visa.huahh mau tak mau si,abis bokap di palembang,gw jadi utusan dah.
hari prtama,pas banget lagi ada south african heritage day.embassy office tutup.so gw dateng cuman buat liat tempat (bonusnya ktemu bule.hehe)
hari kedua,besoknya,udah brhasil ketemu consularnya,tapi tnyata bokap salah isi form.dy isi pake blue ink,yang mana harusnya pk black ink.so i have to send the application form to palembang,n the next day my dad has to send it back to me.
the next following week,libur lebaran.ga bisa ngurus.bonyok trutama bokap mule panik.soalnya mggu dpnnya udah harus brangkat.klo visa blom jadi kn ga bisa jalan.
hari ketiga,kmaren.gw bela2in naik bus pulang pegi ke sudirman,krn ga bisa bw mobil.jm 9 pagi kn masi 3 in 1.so,gw taro mobil di kampus trus naek bus deh.sampe sana,dibilangin masi kurang lengkap ktnya.msti ada travel itinerary dari indo ke malay.(bokap ke sa brgkt dr malay). so,pulang lagi.
jadi ya udah cape jg bolak balik gtu,eh diomelin lagi tadi pagi.gara2 misscom gtu.pokonya kesel banget gw tadi pagi.sampe mo pake eyeliner aja jd bleber mulu,ngulang 2 kali.udah nyiapin sarapan jadi ga napsu makan,akirnya gw simpen lagi di kulkas.anyway gw trus siap2 trus jalan ke kampus.
jalanan enak banget,kosong.orang masi pada mudik.gw sdikit menyesal napa ga lewat tol aja,lancar banget tolnya.huahh
sampe di kampus,gw baru nyadar,DOMPET GW KETINGGALAN!huahh kyny jadi lengkap banget ni hari ini.mana isi dompet itu buat kperluan hari ini.duit buat bayar visa fee,ktp buat bisa masuk gedung kedutaan,pas foto n kartu mahasiswa buat ambil ksm buat ujian,kartu atm dan sgala macem,duit buat angkot (gw naik bus lagi mnghindari 3 in 1),plus duit buat bayar parkir kampus.jadinya gw ngutang dulu tuh tadi sama si mbak tukang parkir.huahh
bingung bgt abis itu.untung gw masih bisa tenang,ga lgsg nangis. :) bingung kan,mo pulang dulu ambil dompet takut ga smpet,masi ada urusan di kampus,msti ke kedutaan,trus jm 1 ujian lagi.to make it short,akhirnya solusinya kirim duit ke atm felis,ambil lewat dia,jadi duit buat fee ada.trus minjem ktp felis buat masuk gedung nanti,minjem pas fotonya felis buat ksm gw.haha ksm kita jadi sama persis gtu fotonya,kembar siam.haha trus minjem duit kecil jg buat naik bus. intinya felis was my hero of the day!haha untuuungg banget ada dia.thx a lot ya fel..kau penyelamatku.haha
so,gw jadi tetep brgkt sesuai rencana nympe kedutaan jm 9an.ktemu sama si mbak yang kmaren,dan finally the visa can be applied.huahh leganya.walopun masi harap2 cemas supaya ga ada masalah dan bisa jadi hari kamis nanti.but i'm soo grateful akhirnya bisa diterima juga semua berkas2 buat visa itu.tinggal berdoa supaya semuanya lancar dan beres hari kamis nanti. thanks God! :)
ujian juga berhasil dilewati.pengawasnya ga nyadar foto ksm gw ma felis sama.lagian muka gw ma foto jg beda,untuung dia ga perhatiin.hehehe
at the end,it was all grreaattt!again,thx God.
n that's why i call this day a 'wow' day.at first i could'nt expect anything good.mood ga enak abis ngomel2 td pagi,dompet ketinggalan,takut visa ga ditrima lagi,takut ujian ga keburu,tapi tnyata semuanya turned out to be great.n it must have been God who did it.
just like wat i've learned from today's devotion.dari New Day New You nya Joyce Meyer.gw tulisin aja deh ya.

~What the devil means for harm,God will use for good
As for u, u thought evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring about that many people should be kept alive, as they are this day. -Gen 50:20
After Joseph had risen to be second in command of all Egypt under Pharaoh, his brothers, who had sold him into slavery,came to egypt to buy grain during the famine joseph had predicted to come. later,joseph arranged for his father,jacob,his brothers and all of their families to move to egypt to live out the rest of the famine in peace and prosperity. when their father jacob died,joseph's brother's were afraid that joseph would take vengeance on them for what they had done to him in his youth. here in this verse we see joseph's assurance to them of his forgiveness of their wrongdoing towards him. actually we see his good attitude being displayed.notice what he tells them: 'you meant it for evil,but God meant it for good,to save many people from starvation'
it is amazing how many times satan will set a trap for us,meaning it for our harm and destruction.but when God gets involved,He takes that thing satan meant to use to destroy us and turns it so that it actually works for our good instead.
my mess has become my message,my misery has become my ministry,and i'm using the experience i gained from my pain to help multitudes of others who are hurting.i encourage u not to waste ur pain.God will use it if u give it to Him.~

yup.that's wat i've learned.dan sayangnya gw baru baca itu setelah semuanya beres.udah keburu panik duluan deh tadi.klo gw baca dulu mgkn gw jd lebih tenang.hoho
anyway,eventhough i'm still a bit wondering knapa kok kejadiannya begini.msti bolak balik ke embassy lah,dompet ketinggalan,berantem,dll.tapi gw prcaya it's all for my own good sake.hoho
so,again,thanks God! :)

lazy saturday

hari ini gw mncapai rekor bangun siang minggu ini..br bangun jem stngah2an!ckckck haha..kapan lagi bs bangun siang ky gini..minggu dpn udah mule kuliah,lgsg ujian,msti bangun pagi mulu lg.. huahh
hmm..kmaren gw makan di pancious sama anak2 date.gw pesen coco pancious sama minum homemade lemon tea. coco pancious itu pancake pake vanila ice cream sama saos coklat.hmm gw si krg suka yah.enak si coklatnya brasa bgt,tapi lama2 enek.menyesal gw pesen double.tau gtu pesen single aj.tapi lmyan dibantuin jeje ngabisin,walopun ga abis jg akirnya.hehe trus nyobain mknan si jeje jg,fetucinni cream cajun beef klo ga salah.agak asin si,but i like it better than mine.hoho penne mushroomnya jg lumayan.hoho kesimpulannya, laen kli klo ke resto pancake,mending pesen pastanya aja deh.hoho
anyway,sampe saat ini gw masi blom nyentuh tugas2 gw.kacau yah..udah gw bikin list si apa aja yg msti dikerjain,tp mpe skrg blom kekumpul semua niatnya.haha kayanya klo blom deket ma deadline tu ga afdol klo ngerjain tgs.hehe lazy me.. stghnya td bangun tidur,krn emang ga bs kmana2 hr ini,udah smpt smangat tuh bikin tugas.udah plan,abis devotion mau masak macaroni ato apa gt buat makan siang,trus abis itu mandi,trus bikin tugas.eh pas kluar kamar tnyata cici gw udah bikin dadar sama gorengin nugget.yasud makan siang pk itu aja.macaroninya masaknya nanti aj.hehe trus abis itu nonton bntar smbil cek email fb fs.niatnya abis ini mau bikin tgs ni.tapi skrg kok jadi males lg yahh..
huahh yasud ah..masak dulu kali yah.sapa tau abis itu smangat bikin tugas.hoho :)

in the still of the night

udah jem 10 lewat,tapi gw blom mule2 buat tugas.pdhl uda di dpn laptop dr jem 6 kurang.huahh lagi ga ada niat nih buat bikin tugas,kpala agak2 pusing lagi.haduhh tapi klo ga buat tgs skrg bsk2 takutnya ga smpet.gmana dong.. :(

anyway i've spent these 2 days of holiday doing food hunting.yay!haha asik jg yah.soalnya jarang2 gw pegi2 cuma buat nyari makan.haha kmaren ke parlour pancake di karawaci,trus malemnya ke bebek goreng surabaya di bsd,trus hr ini tadinya mau ke iga bakar karebosi di gading (udah ngidam dr kmaren :) ), eh taunya dy ga buka hari ini.jd tadi nyoba konro manunnu (klo ga salah namanya itu d)hoho.

~parlour pancake~
maren nyobain:
-potato ... (duh lupa nama menunya apa)
kentang bulet kecil2 pake smoked beef,spices,cream,n cheese.yum!
-choco cheese pancake
pancake pake vanila ice cream,keju,coklat
-chicken fetucinni
fettucini pake jamur,plus ada ayam yg dalemnya ada isinya.
it was all nice.i like it all.trus enaknya duduk di luar,ada lampu2,trus lagi ujan.hoho coba pake lagu jazz jadi makin enak deh.hehe tapi akirnya kita cabut dr situ klo ga tar lama2 masuk angin.hehehe
~bebek goreng surabaya~
makan bebek goreng super sama nasi putih,kangkung,sama ati,sama lalap.lumayan enak.disitu nasi sama tehnya free flow,jadi pasti kenyang deh.hoho tapi atinya kecil bgt,ngeledek gtu,skali suap lgsg abis.ckckck but over all lumayan lah,lagi laper.hehe
~iga bakar manunnu~
lumayah enak.cukup memuaskan keinginan makan konro gw.haha tapi i prefer karebosi than this.klo karebosi kynya lebih spicy gmana gtu :)

yum.slurp2.jadi pgn makan lagi.haha makaan muluu..udah nambah kalori mulu tp ga olahraga2.hohoho msti mule diet nih. :)
hohoho udah dulu deh,masi harus nyari ide buat konsep nih.God,i need some idea pleasee..huhuhu
kynya malem ini tidur malem lagi nihh..

AYO SEMANGAAATTTT!!!!