Minds are like parachutes - they only function when open.

so, i decided to publish my other blog: joyoux.posterous.com
sebenernya awalnya mo bikin blog terpisah aja, blog ini buat yang lebih umum, n that blog buat yang lebih personal. like my personal thoughts, what i'm learning/thinking, and maybe mungkin kadang buat nulis2 pas lagi galau (hopefully sih ga ada galau writings.hihi :D). dan sebenernya jg ga mau terlalu publish blog tsb, krn gw bukan tipe orang yang bisa cerita ke sembarang orang, ga pengen banyak org tau ttg gw, mgkn krn i'm a bit shy person *blushing* :D tapi, belakangan jd mikir, buat apa gw tulis klo org ga bs baca. maybe juga nanti ada temen/org yg ga kenal yg bisa jd belajar/blessed by my writings. so, i decided to share it :D
and why posterous? soalnya gampang banget posting pake posterous. tinggal kirim by email, lgsg jadi deh postingnya. so easy.
so, feel free to mampir di my posterous :) joyoux.posterous.com

Minds are like parachutes - they only function when open.

Kena batunya

Bed-resting at home for two days. Udah lama ga sakit sampe muntah2 gitu, dan kali ini br tau klo gw bisa kena maag jg. Selama ini kadang makan suka telat, kadang makan asal2an aja ga mikir byk, pikirnya gw ga ada sakit maag ini. Ternyataaa bs kena jg. Hiks Tp i'm grateful for this chance to rest at home. Walopun kali ini lg sakit gini ga ada org di rumah, ga ada yg ngurusin, tp thank God ada pacar yg masi mau ngurusin. Beliin bubur dll, n malah minjemin ipad-nya biar gw ga bosen. Thanking God for him :) and i'm realy grateful for the people yang tnyata ms byk yg perhatian jg, my parents, my sister, friends. Thanking God for each one of them :) Dan abis sakit gini jd ky lebih mikirin soal kesehatan. Sakit itu ga enak bangett. Tdnya gw pikir org sakit maag itu paling cuma sakit perut doang ky ditusuk2. Ternyataa sakitnya ga enak bgt (lah namanya juga sakit, masa ada yg enak :p) satu badan rasanya keleyengan, kepala pusing, pengen muntah mulu bawaannya, perut rasanya muter2 banyak gas sampe kruduk2 terus, satu badan lemes, plus ditambah tidur di ranjang seharian jd rasanya tulang sakit semua (klo bangun makin pengen muntah soalnya). Emang yah orang klo blm kena batunya blm mau mikir :p musti makan yg teratur, makan jg dijaga. Skrg ktny ga boleh makan santan, gorengan, asem, pedes, dll. Jd byk pantangan deh. Semoga gw inget :p Yahh, jd mulai skrg harus jaga badan. Rajin2 cari info jg soal makanan yang sehat, mana yg ngga. N walopun skrg masi blm bener2 pulih amat (perut masi kembung2 terus n masi suka mual), i believe God will heal me soon. Thank You for Your healing Lord :)

thinking back/thinking forward

yak udah tanggal 1 september aja nih tau2nya, ga berasa. time is ticking. tahun 2011 uda tinggal sisa 4 bulan lagi. jadi mikir, resolusi taun ini gimana progressnya yah. tapi kali ini ga tau napa agak lebih serius mikirnya, jd mikirin progress kehidupan gw sendiri. hehe berat yah mikirnya :p i dont know, i'm just wondering, what have i done with my life? have i done something great?
belakangan banyak mikir, apa yang gw lakukan selama ini itu sebenernya yg gw mau ato bukan sih? i feel like i want to do these things before, tapi belakangan kok kynya i dont really enjoy doing it yah. hmm sometimes i enjoyed it, sometimes i dont. gw jd brapa kali ky baca2 lagi journal gw di jaman2 dulu, wktu masi semangat2nya, excited buat melakukan banyak hal, pengen ini pengen itu. hmm skrg sih masi ada beberapa hal yg buat gw excited, tapi kok rasanya excitednya beda yah. i dont know apa ini gara2 gw lg jenuh aja, ato emang gw harus cari hal2 lain yang bikin gw semangat. i feel like needing to find my purpose back, the exact things/reason i'm created for.
anw, gw bersyukur dari dulu terbiasa nulis journal. krn dr baca2 apa yg ditulis kdg ky jd ngingetin gw lagi apa yg uda lewat, yg uda tercapai, apa yg tadinya jd harapan gw dll, biar back to track lagi. hehe hmm i think gw mulai nulis journal itu dari sebelom tahun 2000-an bukan ya? lupa. udah lama pokonya. dan klo baca2 lagi tuh kadang bisa ketawa sndiri, sedih sendiri, seneng sndiri, dan yang pasti berasa sgt bersyukur, God has led me this far. baca journal itu berasa ky lagi flashback, ky lagi baca balik kehidupan gw dr jaman dulu sampe skrg. hihi kynya klo dibikin buku, uda bisa jadi buku tebel 400-an halaman deh. hehe
back to the topic. i feel like finding new things to do. or maybe just do the other things that excites me n leave the things i get bored now for sometime? hmm i need wisdom. God please help me :'(
yang jelas, skrg gw masi excited sama hal2 ini: cooking, crafts, dogs/pets, trus apalagi yah, ga kepikiran. hmm i really need to find new things! :p

tiba2 keinget lagu ini:

all of my life in every season, You are still God
i have a reason to sing, i have a reason to worship

one thing for sure, He will never leave me, and He has prepared the best for me. Thank You God :)
ayoo semangat joie! :)

Fruit of the Spirit

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-Control.

But what happens when we live God's way? He brings gifts into our lives, much the same way that fruit appears in an orchard—things like affection for others, exuberance about life, serenity. We develop a willingness to stick with things, a sense of compassion in the heart, and a conviction that a basic holiness permeates things and people. We find ourselves involved in loyal commitments, not needing to force our way in life, able to marshal and direct our energies wisely. (Gal 5:22-23 The Message Bible)

what i found today

via coolhunter (coolhunter on facebook)

rush rush rush

been quite busy these days. so many things to do n be finished. brasa dikejer2 from one to another. plus lagi banyak pikiran juga. jadi rasanya campur aduk deh. huyuhh
anyway, walopun sempet down, thank God dpt semangat lagi abis diingetin to keep on being grateful for everything. give thanks for everything God has permit to be happened, for everything that has been trusted to me, and for the ups and downs, karena semuanya itu untuk kebaikan kita sendiri. and for sure, i trust my God that He is good, He will give me strength to face all the things i should face, do all the things i should do. and believe that He provides the best for my future, way beyond what i can think of. so, thank You God :)

"But those who wait upon God get fresh strength. They spread their wings and soar like eagles, They run and don't get tired, they walk and don't lag behind." Isaiah 40:31

s.e.m.a.n.g.a.t.!

memories

Nowplaying: Inggrid Michaelson - The Way I Am

Klo denger lagu ini jd inget jaman2 kerja di kantor lama, krn dulu smpt tiap pagi alarmnya pk lagu ini :p jd kangen. Kangen kantornya, kangen suasana kerjanya, kangen orang-orangnya, tapi tentunya tidak kangen work loadnya :p

Lucu yah, dengerin lagu-lagu tertentu bisa bikin kita feel back the memories. Jd inget dulu klo dtg ke kantor pagi2 bikin teh dulu br mulai kerja. Inget suka cuciin coffee maker kantor pdhl gw ga sk kopinya, tp gw cuciin biar bisa nyantai bntar di pantry. Inget jadi dj siapin lagu2 buat dimainin seharian di kantor. Inget pas kapan wktu djnya siapa gitu tiba2 ada lagu "kusiapkan hatiku Tuhan" trus ada temen siapin amplop coklat buat persembahan. Hihi *ngakak* inget bbrp kali bikin surprise buat tmn yg ulang taun. Inget klo sore suka nitip si mas hadi beliin tempe n gorengan2 lain, trus makan rame2. Inget wktu2 lembur sampe malem brg tmn2. Inget si pacar yg brp kali tiba2 ada di dpn kantor bawain makan buat ngelembur. Inget kdg sk dianter jemput pacar jg pulang pegi klo lg ga ada mobil. Inget jaman2 pas suka ujan gede n banjir di parkiran. Inget klo abis pegi makan kluar sama anak2 tp nyampe kantor kuncinya ga ada trus jd nongkrong di dpn. Hehe somehow I miss working there. Not missing the stresses and work loads, but missing the memories I guess. Diinget2 dulu jg suka bangun pagi begitu denger alarm jd deg2an n worried about the day. Hehe yah tp dibanding duka2nya skrg ky lebih keinget ama suka2nya :p

Anyway I'm grateful for the time being there. It really helped me a lot to be what I am today. I learned so much at those time. And I'm grateful for everyone I met there. God bless each one of them :)

Skrg being a freelancer bukan berarti jadi seneng2/santai2 n ga ada stres. Stressnya beda, tantangannya beda. Yah both of them (working full time at office and being a freelancer) sama2 punya pros and cons. I'm just grateful for the phase of life that I hv now. Thanks God :)